I realized the otherday that some people are stupid. They are sadly into everything because of "scene points". This is even dumber then doing stuff to be popular in high school. Ok now that that is said...cough...can't wait to move to Chicago...cough. No don't get me wrong. I like the people around here. You guys rock, but I want to start over new ( Read more... )

I realized the otherday when I talked to my friend Chris that I have not been hanging out with anyone anymore. I haven't talked to him since before Christmas and it just feels weird to realize this. Krissy is married and I can't even remember the last time I talked to her. I feel shitty for all these people that I have not meant to, but have ( Read more... )

Well well my life is kinda sucky, but yet some how not that bad. I ended my 2 year vegetarian run and started eating meat again. I needed a change or something. In the middle of finding a new job that is worth going to, looking for scholarships, and painfully fighting off the stomach flu. Wow my life is exciting. That is really about it.

Lately I have been having really weird dreams and they are so realistic that it is scary. I had a dream the otherday that Jordans mom and sisters came over and were cleaning his house and i was sleeping alone in his bed. When they found me I was naked and freaked out. Then I had one about my Christmas at my Grandmas and everyone who shows up. It ( Read more... )

I realized the other day that I haven't written in my journal in fucking forever. I guess I have been a little down lately about a few things, but more or less busy busy busy. I was going to post the day this happened, but I was miserable. The day before Thanksgiving my 18 year old dog was put to sleep. Lady was in really bad shape and my parents ( Read more... )

I couldn't take it anymore. I had to cut my hair again. It was starting to become a mullet and I can't have any of that. I guess my whole growing out my hair thing will just have to wait.

There is this part in the movie "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" when Joel is walking away from Clementine's door. It is so beautiful. It is filmed a little different than most of the movie and he just smiles, standing in the bright of a street light, with snow falling down. It kind of reminded me of how I feel right now. I had a little ray ( Read more... )

Wow this has been an interesting week. I love you all and I have no idea what to say. I guess I am happy and sad, scared and secure. I really don't know how to say what has gone through my fucked up head. I guess this is it for now.

Yesterday may have not worked out exactly how either Erin or I wanted, but I think that we had an ok time. We got to see Ambers wonderful fashion show, I got to see Michael, and we hung out with Liz and her friends. Grant it we drove back...well she drove back late at night and I felt bad cause I couldn't stay awake. But what can you do. We did get ( Read more... )

I got out of work a few hours ago, happily realizing I wasn't going to have to go to work tomorrow. This was the first real smile that has graced my face in days. I opened a bottle of wine and pet my cat. This is a night to remember. I watched a stupid chick flick and cried through the whole end. I cried on my way home tonight too, as I remember. I ( Read more... )