Talking is hard for me...
So I'll type instead.

How do you just turn off the sad switch?
I don't know how to just pretend to move on.
Pretend to forget every fucked-up thing I've done.

I know I need to leave the past behind
and forgive myself for my mistakes
and not dwell on things I cannot control
and let go of the person who will probably
never want to be ( Read more... )

I know I should hate him.
For treating me like I'm nothing,
like I don't matter,
like my emotions and feelings are stupid,
like us being together meant nothing,
like the4 years of being best friends
would have nothing to do with the fact
that I fell head over heels for him,
like I'm some kind of monster
who makes totally avoidable mistakes that
ruin people's ( Read more... )

So I just read a bunch of my old LiveJournal entries
and it basically proved
that I make the same relationship mistakes over and over.
And I apparently have learned nothing
because I'm doing the same shit again.

The only difference this time is
we both sort of realized it and
ended things.

But I'm still tricking myself
into thinking that it's more than what ( Read more... )

Oh LiveJournal, I have missed you. Facebook just isnt the same ( Read more... )

Jeez, where do I start?

Umm,... Well I got a second job at Marble Slab.
Then I got Alex Nurdin (my guy B.F.F.F.) a job there too.
He recently got promoted to key holder (shift lead).
Then he got Derek a job there too.
By the way, Derek and I have been seeing each other again.
(Which is going pretty fricking great right now.)
So anyway,...

Fricking frick ( Read more... )

Really wanting to finally get my tattoo ( Read more... )

So... all the drama is over ( Read more... )

(I typed all this on Friday when everything happened,
but my computer is kinda broken so I had to come to the library to post it.)

oh yeah by the way,
Andre and Amber just came home and confessed
that they are now in a relationship.
i kicked them both out,
though they have yet to actually fucking leave.
go live happily ever after,
just not in my house.
i ( Read more... )

SO CONFUSED.
so yeah... i got an answer finally.
but now i am more lost than i was before.
what the hell??

you wanna be with me but
1. you're scared it will be like before
2. you think a relationship would get in the way of getting your shit together
3. you don't know what the hell you're doing
4. you're not ready to settle down

(my side)you should be with ( Read more... )

I am busy. Really.
(Haven't been able to say that in FOREVER)

So yeah..
might have a new roommate,
who can possibly replace Andre in the near future.
So excited.
Been wanting a girl roommate for a while.
Boys suuuuck.

Speaking of boys who suck...
HA HA
j/k
Alex Lirette is full of win.
Just not really right this second, anyway.

Need an answer soon...
before I ( Read more... )