"Down under water I´m pale blue
Deep down the chlorine smells like you
Was it you that held too tight?
Was it me that was too weak?
I will leave you where you lay
While I slip and slide away"

i dont know if i have been asleep yet, everything feels surreal. im somewhat proud of myself though, i asked someone something ive wanted to ask for one and a half year. and even though things wont be as i wish/hope i think this will make everything easier. (and btw still(?) drunk while writing this :P ( Read more... )

my phone is officially dead and it was the last time ever i bought a SonyEricsson ( Read more... )

"they dress you up in satin
and then they give you your very own pair of wings
in august and everything after, im everything after"

no more alcohol. ever.

love to friends and others!

DJing yesterday was boring, i had only played 3 or 4 tracks when david (another one ;) asked me if i wanted to sit down and have a beer instead, and of course i did ;P david was one of my closest friends 4 yrs ago but i havent really seen him for the past two years since he is studying and working full time. nice to meet him again! petra & her bf ( Read more... )

petra is my adopted sister (i dont have any biologial sisters and shes the youngest in her family and always wanted a younger sister, so its perfect! :) and partner in crime. she got me some adrenaline injections, turbuhaler and cortison from the farmacy... almost everything (except for painkillers and plasters!!) is sold on prescription here ( Read more... )

my parents are (finally) getting divorced and im glad theyre doing it after 20 yrs of constant fighting. my dad is a bit sad but i hope hell get over it, he has the most to gain and deserves someone better than my constantly-fighting-and-screaming-bitch-mother ( Read more... )

i willingly admit that ive been wrong. and someone is really angry with me. completely understandable since ive been an idiot. a jealous idiot. [so if you read this, plz give me a call so we can meet up and sort things out. or just execute me. even though it feels like youve already done that, by ignoring me the past 2 weeks. it eats my heart out ( Read more... )