yesterday while showering, i stopped and realised how extremely depressed I am. i was just overwhelmed with this feeling of deep depression like it was filling every cell of my body. it was such a disgusting and unbearable feeling that i feel like i've just been burying for the past month, and have so little control over.

aaah i dont really nkow why i'm writing here. guess i'm jsut that bored. i feel like i'm constantly killing time.
it's been so long anyway

so grad school is stupid and toronto is depressing.

mr perfect and i bought a condo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we're moving in dec 19th hopefully, the day of my last exam.

that's about it. school is stupid

bleh!

the new apartment is nice ( Read more... )

oh no, so the whole apartment thing is not going as well as expected ( Read more... )

mr perfect and i found a nice apartment!! we're moving in may!

sometimes, i can know a truth for an endless period of time, and all of a sudden, it hits me. it actually hits me and i actually consider the true meaning of a situation

for some reason, i thoguht i realised for the first time, i live with my boyfriend. even though it's been almost a year.

anyway things are well

guess who got a laptop for christmas? mr perfect, being perfect, got me one. this is more pressure to get accepted into grad school ( Read more... )

i dont have time for anything yet i dont do anything. dont you just hate that

so i finally came home. i mean, home-home. and my mother, whom i came home to visit, is not even here. so i am about to drive home. like, sleep-home. ah whatever. im actually a homeless fucking bum.getting depressed about saving for grad school. mr perfect has pointed ( Read more... )

if i do not get accepted into grad school due to crappy letters of intent, I will blame pandora.com

then, i will proceed to spend all my grad school savings on a new car and drive to the edge of the universe