Cold and frosty morning ( Read more... )

The worst is over. Now it's just making things better i guess. I saw an old friend the other day at his work. the whole time i wanted to be cool with him but that was the last time you blew me off and ignored me. The last time i really needed you, almost 4 years ago...but then to some people i wasnt a good friend to you. but at that time i was ( Read more... )

something is happening to me. sometimes i just cant break free from some of the feelings oh hate and destruction that i have. it started awhile ago. i thought it was finally over. that i was finally complete. but now that this happened i want to do something that i cant it would destroy my life, my life with marissa, kristina, everything. but ( Read more... )

everytime i hear his name i want to drag it down with a million fists to the throat, everytime i see his face i want to destroy and mangle the very esscence of what makes him real, everytime i think of him i want to erase the very part of my brain where he lies.

thank you my "friend" you're a real PAL

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i fucking swear to god i should just quit before i end up putting myself in the fucking hospital...i try to make things work and the more i try the more i fuck things up. i took the stupid ass recruiting job as a way to keep me out of debt and the only thing it is doing right now because of admin problems is put me further in the fucking hole. im ( Read more... )

Your Birthdate: September 28

Your birth on the 28th day of the month (1 energy) adds a tone of independence and extra energy to your Life Path ( Read more... )

i guess this recruiting shit isnt all that bad... i go and talk to alot of people and get paid for it, pretty sweet deal. the only thing that sucks is its draining up all of my time. i go to work at 8 come back around 5-5:30 to go get Kristina if i have her, hang out with her, then see marissa if she is out of work, then either go swimming or go ( Read more... )

i have been having horrible felings as of late. was it because of the moon who knows, was it me being crazy quite possibly, all i know is i am feeling so fucking paranoid about some things i just want to stick a sharp object into my skull in order to quell the thoughts. i hope none of them are right. i hope the people i am friends with are still ( Read more... )

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Well i started my recruiting job today...went to the malls and shit but got no names or anyone at all...no one is interested is the military anymore i guess, or maybe it is because we are at war...people that i kinda knew couldnt even tell it was me because i was in uniform. but i am asking everyone who might even slightly want or know someone ( Read more... )