I haven't wished to be dead in a long long long time, but recently that's really all i keep wishing for myself. It's not cause I think life is unfair, or I'm jealous, or i think I'll never find love ( Read more... )

Oh man, where to start ( Read more... )

2009 was a very revealing year in retrospect. It was a roller coaster ride as usual, but it was an experience I certainly learned from. It started off on a rocky incline. After a month long falling out between me and my best friend. We finally after 3 years of friendship involving off and on romances chose to make ourselves exclusive to each other ( Read more... )

I had a strange dream the other night. I was inside a house, one I didn't recognize.I wasn't alone there were others there, none I paid much attention to, but one from the group did catch my eye. It was me! There were two selves present. As I stood in dismay of what felt like a reflection, the dream took an intense turn. A shadowy figure emerged ( Read more... )

I haven't really delved into my psyche' for a while, until recently. Scary place if you ask me, but isn't that the typical comment everyone mentions about their mental behavior ( Read more... )

Does your life suck? Does it blow praverbial chunks? I have a solution!! Get a new life ( Read more... )

I have tried so hard to control my emotions to the point that at times I don't feel them. I can't even acknowledge their existence. I have lost my drive and when I start to develop it, usually it is past due. The damage is done. Unfortunately my drive isn't always strong enough to repair the damage. Only scratch the surface ( Read more... )

So after all the bullshit. I am officailly moving out on my own. I will have my OWN apartment. Things will be tight at first, but things will work themselves out ( Read more... )

This has been a memorable week, but as it winds down...I can feel it begin to stress me out. Mainly cause of the Truck. I will have hopefully...pending on the amount. About a hundred bucks left over from my check to get me by for another two weeks....reasons why ( Read more... )

I Have Done IT!!!!!I have finally purchased a car. A truck to be more specific. It's awesome. It's a single cab so no worries about a ton of people trying to cram in the front. Not to mention there is always a saved seat on the passenger side.....You know who you are ( Read more... )