i climb walls now. ive always looked for that meditative "thing" in my life. perhaps i have found it. Dirty and Amos showed me how. i want to climb every thing. i'll climb youre house, youre car, your dog, even even your face if you let me. i shall climb. i found a place here in buffalo. just got to get some one to go with. and a car. ( Read more... )

selfishness...

“Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me ( Read more... )

i feel so perfect. im able to truely just let go right now. seems i found a good recipe for this slight bliss. wounderful music, my first cup of coffee in years, full pack of smokes and a bit of the green. but mostly the solitude. i love when i feel like i have my own thoughts and energy. i feel like im laying in warm bugless grass and ( Read more... )

DIRTY!!! or any one else that trys to get a hold of me by my cell phone; i get out of work at 5:30 and in bed by 9:30. so call me then. i miss you...

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war is hell..... so is living with a woman.

i was some how able to get myself fired from party city, which made me do alittle dance of joy. i hated it there like ants hate gasoline. i was looking forward to sitting on my ass and being a house boy again but the funds were low so i had to get another job. i went on down to the local temp agency and got myself a real job for once. im a long ( Read more... )

ahhh, a day off and nothing to do. well theres about a hundred things i could and probably should do but i feel more "not right" today. im trying to rid myself of a medication that ive been on for years. its said that beer make the med not work but you just get the side effects. the disition was clear. just getting the corage to face this ( Read more... )

so i had my first day of work since i was a knight. back breaking, on my feet and dealing with humans. not that bad. the regester does scream at me like at primitave(dirt save me most of the time). but im at home... devon seems kinda pissed or something. maybe she misses having me here to greet her or maybe some thing else. i wish i had a ( Read more... )