Yesterday, I took my ukulele down to my quilt group and entertained them with the few songs I knew.  I was really relaxed and just enjoyed myself.  The last time I sang in front of an audience was at at convention.  I really got nervous.  This time it was just a bunch of ladies and a few men whom I knew as friends.  No sweat ( Read more... )

Yesterday, two of my girlfriends and I drove up to highlands of Paauilo to a little one room cottage in pastureland overlooking the shoreline and the sea.  We were there for a writing workshop and none of us knew what to expect.  Gillian, our teacher, is part of a group of women that Joan had met at a workshop on the mainland.  They basically ( Read more... )

I can understand why caretakers die before the person they are caring for.  They'd rather die than live this way any longer.

I started writing this blog again thinking that maybe it could help someone going through what I am going through, but it's just not good for me.  It's like when I was writing in my journals all of my problems and complaints ( Read more... )

Karl has been my best friend, my lover, my husband, the father of my child and the best thing in my life.  Right now, he is teaching me about compassion.  Not an easy lesson for me especially since it starts with me.

Compassion  is not about self-pity.  It is about loving myself unconditionally.  It's about being willing to feel, to be with my ( Read more... )

My life has changed a lot since I started this blog.  It has taken me a while to get out from under the weight I've felt in the last two years.  One of my friends convinced me to take a clairvoyant meditation class which saved my life.  I didn't realize how depleted I was, until our teacher had the class call all of our energy back from wherever in ( Read more... )

A year ago, I was still angry and completely overwhelmed by Karl's illness.  Now the anger shows up still in the day to day happenings until I remember that it is the illness and he can't help it.

A friend sent me a power point presentations about how other people around the planet live in comparison to the way Americans live.  So you think you ( Read more... )

My husband got diagnosed with Alcoholic Dementia several years ago and no one ever told us the diagnosis.  We have been struggling with this and been to three neurologists and various other doctors.  We finally switched him to my GP who read the diagnosis off the charts when I complained that we still didn't know what was wrong with him.  His ( Read more... )

    I've been enjoying the shop.  On the days that I work, I've had time to sew and work on my projects.  It is also the alone time I need although customers come in.   My small goods are selling well . . . so well, that I spend most of my time trying to keep up with them.  I needed to start making more than ten at a time since that has turned out ( Read more... )

    Our shop opened on October 15.  We've had sales everyday, but I've been down with a cold and have not been able to get in there since it opened.  I didn't want to give anyone my cold.  I'm still hacking and coughing so I guess it will be a few more days. 
    Forced to stay home, I actually got some sewing done.  I did some checkbook covers  ( Read more... )

    Here I am back from another quilt retreat.  I just went back and re-read the entry from our last retreat in November.  We couldn't get a booking in October when we usually go so this one got to be early. 
    This time, because summer is such a busy time for a lot of people, only nine of us had reservations.  One lady, at the last moment had to ( Read more... )