Sorry about not updating in so long. I really have wanted to but my computer has been really fucked up. A lot has happened since I last updated. One thing is my introduction to anti-depressents. I also went to ACEN and just today I graduated from High School. My hair is now brown instead of black. I don't know what my plans are for the rest of my ( Read more... )

I would like to bring up an old subject. And I do know everyone will groan and roll their eyes. But this is something I feel I need to touch upon. This is suicide. It sounds so sweet to someone who hates life. You can't really live their life in happiness. I wonder all those times I tried to. I couldn't. I feared it too much. The end. A goodbye to ( Read more... )

The conversation with my ex. Jill ( Read more... )

So yesterday I went to Lintons prom. It was alright I guess...Prom was boring but Post Prom was fun ( Read more... )

It pisses me off how I always have something really interesting to talk about on here but by the time I get home I forget it or I am too tired. I am never home anymore. I met get an hour to talk on the internet a day. I work myself to oblivion. The other week I worked 48 hours. Considering I am still in High School that is 7 days a week and ( Read more... )

Has anyone ever had their heart broke by someone in LJ? You really don't wanna check their journal because you don't wanna know what they say but also you are afraid that they might mention you. But everytime you just get upset because they aren't mentioning you. Yeah...

I'm depressed right now. Maybe I will discuss it later.

I've come to figure something out. And this is very sad. I only update when I am depressed. Seriously, look at all my entry's. So yeah I am obviously upset.But how do I wanna say it? How do I want to express the way I feel? I swore if this would ever happen I would respond in anger. In violence. But that has never even crossed my mind. I am totally ( Read more... )

Sorry everyone I have not updated. For one reason my journal is waaay over here so it is hard to see. I will see about getting it fixed.

My life has become so complicated. I have tried to simplify it and I can't. Mainly people I hate people that I care about because they hurt me. But I can't hate them totally because I care about them so I end up hating myself. I try to help people out but they hurt me so much. One of problems is I care too much. I have always done that. Did ( Read more... )