I am so sick of the old issues. The only thing that kept me going in trying to keep a relationship going was a feeling that she had potential to friend, lover a partner. The potential to stand on her own, but choose to stand with me. I talked with an old friends and a few new ones last night who told me that the most dangerous thing is ( Read more... )

I remember a speech that my x gave (yes she I do think that she is awesome but too intolerably prideful for any relationship right now) right before the election the first time I actually heard her sing with her band. I will give my x credit where it is due, she had the courage and motivation to stand up publicly and speak her mind, when all I did ( Read more... )

This last break up has stirred up some more philosophical/anthropological issues and curiosity. The Carrie Bradshaw Feminism, misogyny, one sided egalitarianism, pride and egoism are now linked in a big mess in my mind. Do I hate women? I am fairly sure the answer is no, but I will write further to and reflect. I say fairly sure because some ( Read more... )

I am finally getting back on this thing. LJ has become a tool of much manipulation for many people in my life. I have had two relationships that ended due to infidelity on the part of the women I was with. The last one basically broke the news to the world on LJ before it was broken to me both times it happened. I also had the joy of reading on ( Read more... )

This is my new journal, I am trying to shed some of the old energy.