http://www.livejournal.com/users/squeek_squeeky/ That is my new livejournal

This one well to many memories I need to start fresh thanks for all you loyal readers!!!

If you are reading this and you cannot see most of my entrys that is because they are now locked away, thanks to a situation that an ex boyfriend of mine caused I now have to lock all of them away, unless you are on my friends list you will not be able to read my entrys they are not all locked away yet but I have March through now locked up and ( Read more... )

So I have decided that my fate as a human is to become my mother. Now don't get me wrong I love her but I don't want to be her. She is what I have described her as many times. My mother is my mother and she has never really filled the job description. I am lucky to have her. Where are you God I need you.

My life has been one huge fucking dissapointment. Everyone that I have ever really cared for and loved has always let me down. With the exception of Ashlee I can't count on anyone. Jody I love him there is a huge fucking disappointment. My mother there is a FUCKING MEGA one the one person who is supose to love me unconditionally FUCKING SCREWS ME ( Read more... )

You know how um you get yourself into these situations and now are like what he heck do I do! Well I am in one, what do I do. I know what to do it is doing it. So if I hadn't done what I did then I wouldn't be in this mess. But see I wanted it, I wanted to be that person but I am not,I WILL NEVER be that person. I have faults ( Read more... )

Swimming if fun my sholder hurts like bloddy hell I think I would rather not have it right now, I have to take a nasty pill and Adam is my hero(ur an amazing swimmer). Kelli's brother and I flirt way to much it is kinda funny, were good friends and Kelli si so very funny I loves her and Jessica. Brian always kicked my but at cards. I talked to BRad ( Read more... )

I remember once not long ago, well it was in June or July I think, we fell asleep and sleept for a while. When I woke up you were gone and I remember crying and feeling empty. I wake up every day now with that empty feeling, sometimes I cry but not always it hurts to thikn about why I am empty. When I would go to bed at night for over a year I ( Read more... )

I miss my hip he was like my right arm but more important I couldn't walk with out him, since october I haven't been able to walk very well. I miss him so much and I really love him very much. I dunno I just kinda wanted to say thanks to Adam cuz I have Ashlee and yea she is like my neck and well with out a neck you can't move your head but without ( Read more... )

I miss your face.
I like our hands together.
I am selfish.
Is that a good thing?
At least I am brave.

So I am really happy and I am also a fool. Life as I know it is finished for me. I am a fool. I smelt him all day every time I walked outside I could smell him, I noticed it in second period,I could not figure out where it was comming from, I finally figured it out his jacket is in my closet and after all this times still smells of him and it hangd ( Read more... )