goodbye everybody

im sorry

fuck all you idiots who think im a shallow bimbo. if you don't take the time to get to know that i have complex thoughts, and judge me on one conversation or one stupid thing that comes out of my mouth, you dont deserve to know me. :)

yes. the world needs to end. i am a firm believer that this will happen soon. and i have very good evidnece to back it up ( Read more... )

so what do you do when you don't quite feel at home when you're at home? but your new home doesn't really feel like home yet either? you become a pirate and sail away with johnny depp ( Read more... )

fuck my last entry im going to run away and live in a cardboard box where my issues wont bother or hurt anyone except myself who after dealing with them for a majority of my life has learned to live with them and function as normally as could be hoped for a manic depressive with trust issues ( Read more... )

so i went home this past weekend and i really did not want to come back. i went over to joanie's for her big 70th birthday party. she is so adorable. when im 70 i want to be bubbly and happy and a great person. or dead. i cant decide which. i got some time to think about it though i hope ( Read more... )

YOU ARE ALL MY FRIENDS. I LOVE ALL OF YOU EVEN WHEN I ACT LIKE A BITCH. I WOULDN'T BOTHER WRITING IN HERE IF I DIDNT CARE ABOUT YOU ALL AND MISS YOU LIKE A BUNCH OF MOTHER FUCKERS. ALL NEED TO REMEMBER IS THAT YOU ARE ALL PART OF AN AMAZING FRIENDSHIP THAT CANT BE BROKEN ( Read more... )

ITS OCTOBER ALREADY. how the hell did that happen? i have been in this herm infested place for a month now. i gined weight too. sad face. its cuz i dont dance my ass off anymore. so i started doing pilates everyday. yeah for pilates. anywho. hi. i miss everyone at home ( Read more... )

im bipolar. wait... waittt..... i knew that! i like super incredibly miss my friends right now. just being around all the girls and stuff. i hang out with pretty much all guys here. not that i dont like that, but sometimes you need girlfriends ( Read more... )

mike and i arent talking because im fucked up.

good for me.

sorry shan, i ruined this one too

i guess this is good though, im kind of sad. not like im gonna start crying, but thinking well thats not good. first emotion i've felt in a while.