So far today I have not purged. I'm not going to purge today, no matter what. I had a few grapes, but that's it. The whole lunch thing is going well; mom will think I eat at school and I tell my friends that I eat when I go home (since I leave school early) and that I'm used to eating then. 11:30 is kinda early for lunch, anyways.

School started today and I miraculously lost the last 2 pounds I needed to reach my ultimate goal of 130!!! I am always so thirsty though... But I'm scared to drink...

Good news and bad news... the good news is I've dropped off a bunch of pounds and am currently fluctuating between 133 and 134 (which means I've passed my 135 school goal with days to spare!). I'm almost to my goal (130) the goal I set years and years ago but never thought I'd reach before Ana came along. I haven't felt so great in my entire life ( Read more... )

Wow. My mind is in overdrive right now. Registered for my sucky new school today. I got put in weight lifting, which isn't so bad because I'll get my body toned (yeah right, more muscle tissue for my body to eat!). Then I went walking around the school and was suddenly greeted by five girls who turned out to be cheerleaders. They're all really ( Read more... )

So mom confronted me about Ana today, threatening to call her cousin (who was anorexic) and ask about the symptoms. Hello, just do a search on the internet and try not to freak out when you see that I have practically all of them. I decided to let myself go for a day and eat 'normally' but alas, it was not to be. I ordered cheese curds (which ( Read more... )

God I feel so sick right now... I'm terrified of getting on the scale tomorrow. Tomorrow I'm getting back on track, no matter what it takes. I'm still so freaking pissed about there not being a diet flavor of the new Mountain Dew. Whoever the asshole at the Mt. Dew HQ is that decided not to make it in diet needs to be shot.

I just had a mini-cereal binge. Re-hydration sucks so bad. I feel so heavy, and I even went for a nice jog/run. And why can't I find any damn low-calorie rice cakes?! I'm going to be such a fat cow when school starts.

Oreo Blizzard (small):
Calories: 570

Cookie Dough Blizzard (small):
Calories: 660

Chocolate Cookie Blizzard (small):
Calories: 720

Small Chocolate Shake
Calories: 560

Small Chocolate Malt
Calories: 640

Holy shit... and the medium/large ones are all over 1000!!! I WILL NOT eat at Dairy Queen today...

UGH!!! I can't believe I ate those animal crackers dipped in friggin' peanut butter! Can I eat anything any more fatty?! And no matter what, I will not give in to my mom tomorrow and eat cheese curds and mini donuts at the fair (we went tonight and I just sat in the car). I think she might be catching on, finally... She said I was looking ( Read more... )

Haha! One of my friends turned 18 today and got her belly pierced! I feel like I've started a belly-piercing trend within our little group, especially since another friend is already planning on doing it. I am in such a good mood right now! In fact I kinda feel jealous... even though I was the one who did it first. Must be because she's the ( Read more... )