i hope that you don't read this and cry. i'm not as pathetic as i make myself out to be. i just whine a lot.

oftentimes i can't understand why the people that i really love in the world don't love me back. not the same, at least. i mean, they always "love" me, but there's always some reason that they leave me. everyone leaves ( Read more... )

...and kris is in jail. again.

I feel like everything is so mixed up in my head and in my life. I suppose I've really felt that way for quite awhile. But this time it's not a bad thing. At least, not yet. I think that things could make a turn for the better, or for worse, so I guess all that I can really do is be optimistic and know that things will be as they are supposed to be ( Read more... )

yeah...i'm in trouble.

and my stomach is twisting into knots.

my heart is in my fucking throat.

(I stole this from Miya's blog ( Read more... )

Today, I got up and felt relieved. I was relieved to be done with everything - to have said everything, and heard everything. I was relieved to be done with you for a little bit.

I put on a shirt, and it smelled like you.

I think I forgot what it feels like to be happy.

I am sure I forgot what it feels like to be told you are pretty, and to believe it, and to give a shit.

You were right - it was enough. It will always be enough.