I think I'd rather be alone. Alone, alone. For reals.

(I stole this from Miya's blog ( Read more... )

you're the one that i wanted to find

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i really just want you to know how i feel. not that it matters anymore. i still feel the same, but i don't want to. so i'll pretend i won't. i think maybe you're not worth it anyway.

it's easier for me to control you than to control myself.

I was thinking this morning about how many times I have tried to quit loving you, and how ridiculously in love with you I STILL am...And I was thinking how I used to feel the same way about John - that I would never be able to fall out of love. I don't necessarily think that I did, but it's like I'm in love with him as a friend - like we're friend ( Read more... )

my quasi-boyfriend's fiance just e-mailed me.

you are the only person that makes me feel like i am worth anything. and it's only because you love me ( Read more... )

I found a stack of my old journals earlier...It was very strange to read them, because I don't remember feeling any of that. I know that it will be the same someday for how I feel now. I suppose that is really what makes the bad times okay. Someday I will think back and won't remember...I won't remember the way you smelled, the way you looked at me ( Read more... )

time seems to go by much more slowly with all of this technology.

i think that it is hard for me to remain at all neutral when it comes to the lives of my closest friends. there are just some people that i love too much for my own good. i just always want to know that you are okay. and happy. please, be happy.