I'm scared right now but I also have a sense of relief. I've got a gut feeling I made a mistake by doing this. But I'll be making something out of myself. I'll be getting out of this town atleast for a few months. Away from the people who do stupid things. I'm going to miss only a few people here. I'm not going to name anyone but I'm sure you know ( Read more... )

ahh, I just got back from Wilmington! I had a blast. I didn't get to hang out with people I wanted as much but when we did I was either plastered or the entire time it was really awkward. But seriously. the last week has been a blur. I'll go into details later!!

PABST BLUE RIBBON

I only had one hope left in this bleak life and I'm just going to let it die.

bye bye.

okay, so nothing is different from being 20 at all. I wish that I was a kid again. or dead.

As of now I am officially 20 years of age. July 22nd, 1986 I am of 20 years of age. Not a thing feels different right now bu I know I'm nolonger a teenager. Nothing is special nothing seems signifigant. Nothing is nothing. Life is nothing. I'm glad I have a few friends and family to spend the day with. If I didn't have them I would be dead now. ( Read more... )

in 11 days. On july 22nd actually. I was born. On that day. I will be 20. NO longer a teenager. Everyone, please wish me a happy birthday.

There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone, in fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no ( Read more... )

You can't eat grilled cheese. I can't watch brokeback mountain

Body: Between us and only us... whoever reads this I wanna know 20 things about you. Fill in all the blanks ... leave no question unanswered! ANSWER IT AND SEND IT TO ME IN MY INBOX(REPLY). THEN COPY AND REPOST IT FOR YOURSELF ( Read more... )

Three cheers to rising alcoholics.
Three cheers to me.
Three cheers for more brew.
Three cheers for you.

Three cheers for drinking at 11 am.

Why am I so fuckin' angry. I'm ready to fucking kill someone.
it's the same old empty rage acting up. none of you know about this.

bla bla fucking bla.

i met someone new. She makes me happy.

edit:
you shit bitch cunt pussy gash fucker ballsack. i love to curse