i keep buying a few steps in front of me ( Read more... )

ever had one of those days when it's a stretch to find that small victory in every thing ( Read more... )

imagine inviting a good friend to see a movie or a concert, and they pass on it. then find out they changed their mind and went to it with others anyway. the most wonderful thing is they were able to experience what you wanted to share with them in the first place anyway. the problem doesn't lie in having the freedom to choose and making different ( Read more... )

i share with you my song "Imposter", covered by the magnifique Mr. Kenny Hall.click the 1st song: Kenny Hall - Imposter (macrina cover ( Read more... )

being selfish and an asshole will hurt those around me as i am finding out. yet, i can't help but maintain that it is necessary to be selfish and an asshole in order to start building something of my own. where is the friendly middle-ground, and how do i get there??? i have no clue. fusion confusion, indeed ( Read more... )

sometimes when i drive around between destinations, i wonder what it's all for. the hustle and bustle that is. like today, i wonder about this in between trying to make out the backlit silhouette of overdue cherry blossoms against the sun as i drive, or getting sprinkled on by the rain in a 2-minute walk. i suppose it's to "make it" there. to say ( Read more... )

sports analogies are usually not my bag, because i think they are lame. that's not to say mine won't be lame either. but i feel it's descriptive to my mood as of late. last week, i brought out the basketball to the near-by court and played for the first time in a decade perhaps. there are some things you don't forget how to do. it's like riding a ( Read more... )

i confessed i didn't really know what sins were, or how to identify my sins. sins are often just result of what we lack at the core, which is love. the other night, i felt it pointless to list these "consequences" from the lack of love in an brightly lit confessional booth. i confessed to the fact that i only know i may have "sinned" whenever i ( Read more... )

"It will be a productive, active day -- even if your energy is a bit slow this morning. Don't worry if you can't quite get out of bed, or if the idea of getting dressed seems like an insurmountable mountain you don't particularly feel like climbing. Once you do get out into the world, you will get going and get energized. Just be careful not to ( Read more... )

everyday, i am reminded to feel all that is and should be life, to feel alive. but the other day, i was reminded of just how to do that when feeling down. when i feel alone, i should go to it. welcome it, entertain it, declare it. wander to a place with no intent. lay on my back and sink into the earth, be one with nature. there is desire to go ( Read more... )