2011 was a year of change. A lot happened.

Love, heartbreak. Endings and new beginnings. A change of location, a change of career. A vision for the future. Letting go of the hurt.

2012 is poised to be an amazing year for me. And I will do everything in my power to continue to believe this. And to work hard to make it happen.

Things are finally looking up for me. I have a job I love, friends I care about, a home I feel at home in, a trip to Vancouver planned, and I'm finally talking to nice guys. I'm being smart and taking care of myself when it comes to certain situations and people ( Read more... )

There is a wicked rush of emotion that comes when one is doing some illicit deed. That warm, sickly wave of nausea, adrenaline, self doubt and excitement that comes to the forefront and impels one to commit whatever sin one has chosen ( Read more... )

today was a good day
finally
i love having a good day.

i miss having days like this
they need to happen more often.

even with all the shit going on around me
and it breaks my heart to see it happen
today was about me, and having a good day

god, this is a weird feeling.
happiness.

who would have thought?

i'm so full of questions tonight ( Read more... )

i do believe that i'm becoming a paranoid, agoraphobic recluse who is afraid of life and is shunning society ( Read more... )

i find it somewhat funny when my head tells me how i'm feeling ( Read more... )

i'm fucking depressed, man.

ugh.
not like crying-i-hate-everything-why-does-no-one-love-me-cutcutcut kind of depressed

it's the kind of depressed where my soul feels empty
and i'm not seeing the point of anything
and i'm giving up.

dag, yo
this is bullshit.

 OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

DREAM COME TRUE TONIGHT!!!!!

OH MY GOD.

I will NEVER forget this. As long as I live.

Holy crap!

Ad astra per aspera

something to think about.