so me and j broke up last week. i hate it. i dont know what to do. it feels over but not. i have been put on antidepressants by my doctor and they have been helping somewhat. i have been trying to work a lot and keep busy but so far i still think of him before i go to bed and when i wake up. he is the first person i could sleep next to comfertably ( Read more... )

so i gave j his birthday presents. and he loved them. we curled up together all night and slept next to eachother. just cuddling for hours. i would wake up at every hour or two to him kissing me on my forehead or on my shoulder and then he would fall back asleep. i left him in a pissy mood today though which was stupid. because i just want to be ( Read more... )

dear god,
give me one day where i am not insecure about everything. one day where i am just happy. and not over analyzing everything. give me a day where i can just relax and think to myself wow jen, you dont suck nearly as much as you think you do.
thanking you in advance.
-jen

so i am crazy about him. yep. you bet. i am moving into the new apartment. its nice. i gotta move my bed and stuff in there. im watching fast times at ridgemont high. argh

i hate when movies put me in a bad mood. i am watching casulties of war and even though it is a great movie. it is putting me in this shit mood. j called me today on his break. i let him do what he wants because i dont want to over do it. i dont want to push him away. so its better that i right in this than get myself worked up to him. i want to ( Read more... )

yea. i over analyze. j called me. everything is fine. i just let my mind loose and run wild. oh well. the girl on iron chef said pea-ness. haha. its funny.

so yea. i honestly never thought that i would write in this thing again. i guess i know that no one will read it so i dont feel so badly posting in it. i feel as though i have been had. by friends by life by boys. first off. i feel as though my friends have distanced themselves away from me because i have gotten a new boy in my life. maybe its me ( Read more... )

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i hate boys. i hate it a lot.
my hands hurt.
sigh.

oooh....and yea. totally know the drummer of slapshot.

haha. im cool.