This semester is going pretty well so far, it's stressful though. I've started looking at grad schools. I'm applying to John Hopkins, George Washington, Boston University, and USF. Ideally I'd like to go to John Hopkins, I'm ready to get out of Florida. I've also realized that I love my job and for reasons I wouldn't think that I'd like it. I love ( Read more... )

I'm so sick of being fucking weak. I'm sick of thinking about him and worrying about if he's alive and ok. Why should waste so much time thinking about someone who wasn't cared enough to pick up a phone in four years. I'm done with all this crap, no more tears. From this time on I will be stronger and I will not let it get to me. I know too many ( Read more... )

This weekend has been insanely stressful. I told Phil a couple of weeks ago that I just want to be friends. I realized I don't have time for a serious relationship right now. I'm working and going to school seven days a week and when I have free time I study. Plus, I really am not someone who can do a long distance relationship. Well I explained ( Read more... )

For some reason I have not been able to get my brother out of my head for like the last month, and it is unbearable. I don't just think about him I get really depressed. I can't stop thinking about the fact that I may never see him again, I may never again hear his voice, or have him tease me, or beat me up... I just have to be realistic about it. ( Read more... )

My summer is going good. I finished BankAtlantic training last week, and today was my first day on my own drawer. I got my own set of keys and everything. I was really relieved I balanced at the end of the day. It's just weird I'm not used to having a real 9-5 job with actual responsibility. Last weekend really sucked. Friday I tried to look my ( Read more... )

This summer is going well. I got a job at BankAtlantic in Brandon as a teller. It's nice to have a real job that doesn't make me feel disgusting by the end of the day. Last Monday they flew me down to Ft. Lauderdale to the corporate center for orientation, which was actually fun. I shadowed at the bank last week and I start training classes on ( Read more... )

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Last night Phil and I had a long talk, and we decided that when he moves back to Florida in June we are going to date. I've had a crush on him forever, and apparently he liked me for a long time too. He asked me if we were together now and I left it up to him, and he said he wanted us to be together now, so he kept saying "my girlfriend" and "your ( Read more... )

I've been getting my brother out of my head, and it hasn't really bothered me that much since last week. That was until last night. I had a really vivid dream of my brother coming home. He just came back, and everyone else just pretended like nothing ever happened. I confronted him against the urging of my parents, and I did, and he and I talked ( Read more... )