Ok so yesterday me, chelsey and jody  went to the hampton shops and went out for lunch. We had a nice conversation and then Jody brought us to the mall. It was fun. We played DDR untill I almost passed out and I bought pink fuzzy handcuffs!! Oh and Jody, Chelseys mom said I didn't have to worry about the wine glass. It was cheap. After the mall I ( Read more... )

Ok I can finally update cuz I am at my friend Chelsey's house. So much happened over this week.

Sunday- Ray got married. like 100 people there but I felt so alone. when I got home I attempted to cut myself.

Monday- I told Eric if he cut himself that I'd slit my throat. He said oh then you better not cut yourself. so I started to feel guilty and got ( Read more... )

Yesterday at 3 my sister came and we went to Anthony's party. He just turned 6. It was pretty fun. I had a good funny conversation with the adults. There like the coolest people. We got home around 7:30-8 o clock and I worked on my homework. I played some games with Austin and feel asleep with the dog at 11.

Today- I woke up went to Dunkin Donuts ( Read more... )

Last night I stole one of Chris's ciggerettes. I really wish i never smoked it or snorted fun dip. I mean i felt less of the need to cut and all. But now i have the sniffles and I have asthma and its kinda hard to breathe. I need a healthier way to cope with sutin instead of cutting or doing damage to myself but right now thats the only way I know ( Read more... )

I get to my fathers house and the second I walk in my dad and his girl friend chris are fighting. They've been fighting this whole time. I want to leave. I went to the store with Cory and we got a bunch of sugar and we snuck through the basement cuz when we got home they were still fighting. We had our sugar I snorted some fun dip. I am on a huge ( Read more... )

Yesterday was great! I got to skip E, F, and G to go to the Big E. I went to first and second lunch. On the bus me and Amy sat together and we were connected to each other by a chain. It was fun. Me, Eric, KC, Amy, and Dustin and alissa were all walking together. We bought some necklaces and then me alissa and eric went on the swings together it ( Read more... )

Yesterday was not a good day at all. I woke up depressed. Okay when i got off the bus and went into the cafeteria. I told Eric how I was like freaking out cuz I couldn't cut or else he would slash his arm up. I ended up sitting in the corner, I just wanted to be alone. Eric sat next to me and I talked to him a bit. I went with him to get breakfest ( Read more... )

Today was shitty. I get on the bus cut my sholder. Give eric my safty pin and he tells me about his weekend. I felt bad for him cuz of all the shit that happens. I wish I could handle all that without cutting. Like his father almost died and he couldn't visit him in the hospital his great grandma did die, he had to work all weekend. i mean if that ( Read more... )

Yesterday I got hit in the head with the freezer door. I got yelled at by my brother. We did have chinease food which was yummy. All Val did was play Spyro. I had to please her all day. We went on a night walk for like an hour. Today sucked just as much. I made Val breakfest and brought it downstairs for her. We went for a walk to Chelsey's. I was ( Read more... )

I would of cut my self by now if Val wasn't here. First me and her walked to Dustins and hung out with him. Then we walked home and when we got there we looked at my year books. We made mac and cheese. My brother Dillon was pissed off so he decides to call me a stupid mother fucker and yell at me for no fucking reason. Val keeps fucking poking me ( Read more... )