things are not looking good. billy went for x-rays today but he still seemed pissy from last nite. apparently he got to some drinking after lights out. he doesnt think hes gonna get a med board which really sucks for us cause it means no more money! BLAH! no more money means no more life. i yelled at him cause hes thinking about going awol and i ( Read more... )

talked to billy before and he was having a bad day. we talked about the 3 page letter i sent him about a week ago that was really depressing and he told me not to worry about it. that i shouldnt let sandi's coming back get me down. ive been feeling better about that whole thing lately anyways so its no biggie. he said that hopefully he'll have good ( Read more... )

last nite andrew and i went to matt's and watched Vanilla Sky. what a great mind fuck movie! we were there until about 4ish and i decided that it wasnt worth going home so i stayed over at miles'. it took me a while to fall asleep even though i was so tired cause andrew was just kinda sitting there, i dunno. i got up around 1:40ish today and went ( Read more... )

okay lj sucks right about now... i stayed at my moms last nite. diana came down and i went with her, miller, eric, and dan to play pool. dan was being kinda weird, like his usual stare into space kinda thing. when eric and i talked about him yesterday he was saying how all summer dan talked about how he was in love with me and it made me feel real ( Read more... )

last nite i went to my grandmas cause everyone was celebrating my aunt and uncle's 25th anniversary. it was weird cause i hadnt seen any of my family since christmas. no one is home and im so freakin bored its not even funny. hey! ill call eric! .....*ringing*

hello?

yeah its me wanna go to the mall?

yeah sure.

ok ill be there in 20.

so yeah ( Read more... )

things are really looking up lately.. billy called today. he goes for x-rays next week and hopefully hell get a medboard and be home in two months tops. my ring comes in on monday.. =) tomorrow im going to my dads but im not looking foward to goin cause were visiting family. BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! were supposed to get snow soon. sunday night actually. ( Read more... )

today's been awesome so far..bonnie passed her driver's test. and i think im going to get that new job i applied for, i picked up another application today. then bonnie got me obsessed with this song by the used called on my own. goes like this ( Read more... )

today was so incredibly wonderful i cant begin to describe it! i woke up feeling kinda blah and then i went to work and almost got fired! hells yeah! my manager was like "im going to have to call the DM cause i dont know how to handle this (my nose ring) " and i was like "um ok" and then she was like "he said to just put a band-aid over it" and i ( Read more... )

got a weird post today... prolly from one of bon's friends. whoever it was seemed pretty pissed off so i hope the mystery poster finds whatever they're looking for. im feeling pretty excited about things, hopefully its a sign that this rough patch is passing. the shittiest thing happened before though; i was watching a perfectly good brain-rotting ( Read more... )

today my spirits have lifted a bit; i have plotted the most amazing, the most simple plan in the world to cure my insecurities. it seems all too simple that i cant believe i never thought of it before. i shall simply kill my enemy; both mental and physical and no one would ever know the difference! imagine someone so evil, your life crumbles at the ( Read more... )