i'm going out with dan
and hes amazing
i really really like him.
he makes me laugh and smile and feel kiddy and beautiful
and like a little kid, soooo happy and i can be my total self around him,
crazy hyper me and he doesn't think i'm completely pyscho.
ugg hes amazing.

i do miss how scott and i used to be.
hugging and back massages and shit
but i like ( Read more... )

i like scott
BUT i'm going out with dan.

i really really like scott though.
but dan is an amazing boyfriend and i really really like him too.
their both going to college next year, dans going 3 hours away....
scott is either staying here or going to arizona.
he told me his decision is based on me.
ugg.
i like him ALOT.
I DONO WHAT TO DO!

okay so... my moms out of the hospital. she got out 2 days ago. it was 3 weeks she was in there. so shes pretty thrilled about being out!! lol but recently i've just been hanging out with my friends...trying to have fun.
i miss summer. and i miss james, but its in the past and it wont ever happen the same again.
 so as much as i want to dwell on ( Read more... )

okay so i haven't updated forever so here goes nothing ( Read more... )

so...james[[ohio]] && i talked..alot lately. actually. i REALLY want him to come here && i'm pretty positive he really wants to. but so now the other james[[is an asshole]] so yea i met a boy from the same band as james named andrew. && i kinda like him && he kinda likes me. so yea. well yesterday night i hung out with him && our friends. so its ( Read more... )

*Shot through the heart and you're to blame
Darlin' you give love, a bad name*

boys.boys.boys. what to say about them? umm...nothing! i give up. on james[[ohio]] anyway. yea i know. i do love him, but you know what, he doesn't love me. i don't believe he does.old habits die hard.i'm not calling him anymore[[which is so much more difficult than i ( Read more... )

Listen
*I know it’s been a long time.
You’ve lost that look in your eye.
The one that told me everything was fine without a word.
But now we’re standing face to face,
with nothing left to say but goodbye to yesterday.

I don’t know if I can make it.
I don’t know if I’m that strong.
I don’t know where we went wrong but somehow it’s over.
In my mind I see you ( Read more... )

* Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons,

but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common.

They're shooting stars,

a spectacular moment of light in the heavens,

fleeting glimpse of eternity, and

in a flash they're gone.*

[[oh how true that is right now...:-(]]

This summer has been A-M-A-Z-I-N-G,but even more than that ( Read more... )

i'm so fucked. everything got fucked over.

i lost two of the most amazing most trusting friends i've ever had.....for almost 3 years friendship.