I stopped updating on livejournal because I found that I can no longer form cohesive sentences. I cant tell if this is because my grammar skills are lacking or because my thoughts are so fragmented....

sure...why not.

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now I am sitting in the empty loneliness of my apartment. I feel like I have gotten myself into a strange world that is a parallel reality to my life. all of the inconceivable possibilities are coming into play and I feel swept along by an uncontrollable tide of emotion. I can no longer easily define what I want and what I don't want. I feel like I ( Read more... )

ok, well, I feel better. sometimes I need to just go off about something for a while, so its not all fragmented in my head ( Read more... )

oh dear ( Read more... )

Take the quiz: "Which American City Are You?"

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my life is non-functioning at this moment... but only on one level- I am waiting for the dryer to finish ( Read more... )

ok, so, I'm slightly intoxicated and tempted to drink another beer... but I probably wont because I have to be at work at 6:00am tomorrow morning. my friends are off to do things I think I wish I was doing but really I know I don't want to do. I like this slightly drunk feeling, I haven't had it in a while... it makes me feel like I could type out ( Read more... )

I lost it... I lost myself. somehow I allowed myself to believe that intimacy means something.... that I wasn't just one of many.... but I am, and I stooped that low and I compromised what is ok with me to do something that isn't... all the while only believing myself.... though clearly I was always mistaken and simply choosing to believe (self ( Read more... )