well... where to begin?!?!

i sure as hell don't KNOW!!!

this past week has sucked so fucking bad... i just don't know where to start....

eh... fuck it!! lets just say it has been hell and it just got 110% worse on SATURDAY night....

i went out to the club to have a beer and see someone that, i oh so desperately care about..... thinking that might ( Read more... )

i'm awake and oh so very SAD, and wishing this excrutiating pain that is in my heart would just go away.... NOW!!!

OMFG...i got the most adorable kitties on wednesday, from a girl that i work with and i just love them so much.... i only got the black one and the white one and let me just say that these kitties could melt the coldest of hearts.... will show pics soon, dont know what happened to my post before.... FUCK.... hate that when that happens.... :(

ok, so on my day off today.. after working 45+ hours at work.... i got to help my mother move 3 tons of rock and 256 bricks that we bought from Lowes ( Read more... )

well my new job seems to be working out pretty well.... it can be long and tedius at times but it pays the bills, so what the hell!!!

still going to look for a better paying one, while i work at this one... so we'll see hopw that all goes....

"sighs"

why the hell is it so hard to find a good paying job here in this god forsaken town? 

ok so one court hearing down, only three more to go....today i was only fined $400.00 which is to be due on the 1st of August and an extra two days in jail on top on the manadatory jail time that i'm facing as of yet....

shit, i can't wait to find out what's going to happen to me on July 22nd....

i have come to the sad realization that this so called life that i have been living, really is as pathetic as it seems...and all in all nothing is what is seems...

as hard as i try to be sane, it just can't be done...i'm just crazy and fucked up in the head and nothing can fix that...

i thought i could make it all go away, i thought i could fix it ( Read more... )

as i look back at my life in retrospect, i have to wonder "why".... it now seems that all of the demons from my past are always going to be there to haunt me... i can't seem to get the fuck away from them...

i tell myself that there is something good for me in this world and it's just waiting around the corner, but as soon as i'm about to get to ( Read more... )

and now my tummy hurts today.... damn bacardi and coke, perty delicious but oh so bad on the tummy....=(

and i also am feeling quite dehydrated but water is not tasting very good either, so wtf!!

must find something to make me feel better, maybe i should just make myself another drink... um yeah.... i think that will fix it.... or not!

well, where to begin.... friday was alot of fun, went out with my parent's to see a band play that my mother knew, they were pretty good, for an old rocker sorta band... then we ventured over to the asylum, where my parents came along, too...this was oh so...interesting to say the least, but they had a very good time and so that is all that matters ( Read more... )