i wish my house would just smell normal for once.

ugh. i dislike this feeling. i don't want to be like this. stupid stupid me. to ever think... bummer

i will miss them. especially... i hate this i don't want to be like this. the christmas lights on my wall are tacky but i like them. i am going to be white trash and leave them up for a while. more like the rest of the year.

confronting your suspicions sometimes turns out to make you feel better.

there is an explosion of paper under my desk. it has been there for about maybe 2 months. when i visited jess with eric on saturday i saw her room. i am glad that i am not alone in the mess department. i miss the people that i truly care about. i hope they all feel the same. when i am not with them i feel incomplete and i miss having my own room ( Read more... )

broken......

yet complete.

i think i might be moving on. onto a better life. i am praying for patience. like always. all the struggle is worth it. i am still on my journey. and as i get closer and closer i realize how far away i truly am.

ps liz i love you. and i think i might get a xanga.

people that have never been to disneyland.
people who don't like mix tapes that i make them.
people who won't step out and experience something new.
people who turn others away from Christ by their actions...

i hope that one day i will truely have a real relationship with my father. i am thankful for all of my friends old, new, and renewed. college is different than i expected. i can't wait til christmas break and til next semester. i am feeling blessed with everything that God has given me. welcome back.

slanted pool table.
husband.
birthdays.
lots of firsts.
yosemite.
fireworks echoing against the mountains.
spending time with best friends.
yatching.
the paddington bear coat.
people that are pretty much my family.
getting adopted by uncle rob.
yep, i loved all of it.

from far away we get closer...
until we meet....
then we drift apart again...

life is full of chance meetings the first days you meet will be the best time of the friendship then you will grow apart..

so with that the school year is over ( Read more... )