I still think about transferring all the time...

I realize how much has changed in such a little amount of time, a year..really..a year ( Read more... )

Reading about Mai Lai massacre depresses me..I didnt know what it was about..but oh wow..

I am not happy..and i dont know why..I feel like i am being pulled in every direction...and its making me completly and totally miserable

I dont feel exactly adequate right now..and thats cuz I feel sort of guilty..I have not spoken with chris since like umm saturday I think..and I havent seen him in over a week..And the last time we spoke i sort of snapped at him, so I have tried to call to apologize but he just hasnt been bonding with his phone lately..I dont know..i hope to see ( Read more... )

do do do ..had my interview today..it was fascinating really..longest few minutes of my life, it went well they offered me a job..and being hot headed and impulsive (i took it naturally) so now i have a job..but ...its way out there in the boonies and hmm...work..no drd tho :P the joys..well i may work for drd but not all summer not 6 days a week.. ( Read more... )

he has been cold and distant lately..and its getting on my nerves big time..so i have decided space is the best remedy..and i am giving him tons of it.unless he wants to talk to me..then i can do that too..

"we have bad communication skills sometimes..we go through the same routine" and he is right we always do..we always have. He will say something mean, I will get pissed off and not talk to him and then he comes to me and tries to make up and bout 5 minutes later I forgive him. I guess that does to a certain point even drive him crazy. I think that ( Read more... )

sometimes in life you get to make a choice wether to run with whats going on or go against and try to fight..for once it feels good just to run! :) and matthew u feel better

I dont really know what to say. I guess i have been seriously considering moving out of my house..not that I can afford it or anything but I just need a move. I am tired of life at home If you can even call it that..home. I am tired of drunken fights and people displacing their anger, I am tired of alcohol. I am just really tired of the shit that ( Read more... )