So lately I've been toying with the idea of creative writing. Thinking that it might be a good idea because everything in the course listing interests me! However, I wasn't sure what type of jobs you could get with that sort of degree.. well I've been doing some investigating and I've come up with something that I think might work for me!

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Well my new years was pretty shitty. I mixed way too many different drinks and made myself sick, passed out and Justin has to get me up to celebrate new years, and I balled my eyes out..  I blacked out a few times because I don't remember some things... yep shitty. I also told Dylan he's a douche and an asshole which I don't remember doing. Then we ( Read more... )

Okay so here is the conversation via text with dylan's 'girlfriend'

Gf: hi its shawna. i just wanted to say hi.
me: I dont know who shawna is.
Gf: Oh I'm dylan's new girlfriend.
me: well good luck with that.
GF:Oh what's that supposed to mean?
me: exactly what I meant. good luck with that
GF: ?
me: nevermind
GF: umm ok....
me: why are you texting me?
GF: ( Read more... )

OH I'm pissed. Its only 11 and I'm fucking pissed. So I'm sitting at the computer listening to music and all of a sudden i get a message from Dylan saying this is shawna hi.. and I'm like who the fuck is Shawna... apparently its Dylan's new girlfriend... hahahahahaha that's hilarious! I said well good luck with that and confused the stupid bitch.. ( Read more... )

I've been thinking so much lately, crying for really no reason at all... i think I've cried more in the past couple weeks than I have in my entire life.. a song will do it, a thought about someone or something and there I go... One evening I couldn't stop I just kept crying.. and I actually prayed which I rarely if ever do, and then my mom came ( Read more... )

Being a girl you always dream of that perfect wedding. Envision it in your mind so that when the time comes to walk down that aisle you already know what flowers you'd like, what sort of atmosphere you'd like to create. So there I was standing in the mirror as my mom put on my wedding dress and it was anything but what I had envisioned.
I was ( Read more... )

I have issues with self worth. I don't feel like I'm good enough and then I think I am, I flip flop change my mind and end up feeling sorry for myself and bringing those around me down with me. I'm pathetic. Sometimes I seriously hate myself and the things that I say. And sometimes I actually see what others see in me a person who probably cares ( Read more... )

I feel like I try so damn hard to make everyone happy... sigh.. why do I bother? No one seriously gives a shit. Today for instance I went and bought a bunch of christmas stuff.. a tree and everything and they don't care.. so why should I?

So Dylan and I are completely done. I've had enough and apparently so has he. We had a pretty good fight.. where I actually told him how I was feeling and then he got pissed off and all that.. saying I expect too much from him and that I want him to be my boyfriend and that everytime I come over I'm mad at him. I'm not mad at him all the time I ( Read more... )

Sigh ( Read more... )