dont worry about politics too much, its a cycle anyway. for those who will busy their entire lives with it, you are necessary, otherwise we would have idiots running the country. that would be ironic if it werent for the fact that our system is quite an anomaly(spelling?). bush may be mentally absent but he isnt even our main concern, hes a puppet ( Read more... )

i know it's been awhile since i last made an entry and at that time i was really too worried about some unimportant jerks trying to marr my self respect and thus make themselves feel better or something but here i am again in Texas, not being able to find my cell phone. about that whole "bully" thing, i never really believed that people push others ( Read more... )

Stop whatever it is that you are thinking. now listen to me, or anybody, for once. it may sound like im making acusations(spelling?) but in reality you probably weren't listening. you have tried, succeeded a couple of times but usually we are so busy with ourselves we dont have time to really listen. so stop right now. just stop. listen to your ( Read more... )

there is only death in life, and in death comes life. changing the subject just a little bit. people looked to the sky, "this is where god is." man said. the sky continued its life, not caring. for too long a time, i didnt even know why my parents divorced. "mom...can i move to texas?" "thomas how many times do i have to say NO." "but mommy, why ( Read more... )

crowd around me filth of the world. i can show you secrets you couldnt discover in your world of textbooks, attractive people, and impossible hopes of becoming a rich famouse star. i will show you the real world. one that does not exist. if one thing isnt important, then none of it is. are you even real? or just my schizophrenic hallucination, ( Read more... )

a tiger can smile
a snake will say it loves you
lies make us evil

flowers bloom and die
wind brings butterflies or snow
a stone wont notice

without just one nest
a birf can call the world home
life is your career

prepare to evacuate soul.

Worker bees can leave
Even drones can fly away
The queen is their slave

its been awhile viewer. i can still be a jerk, especially when im thinking ive finally stopped being the asshole ive been before. oh well, im learning i guess. im tired, my throat aches, i still feel jittery and nervous when i think of the battle anastasia knows what i mean. i had this huge great idea of an entry to make while i was mowing the lawn ( Read more... )

i dont feel intelligent tonight, but i dont care. i feel stupid and slow and emotional and weak and i sort of love it right now. i dont know why, maybe i dont feel like anything, maybe im just confused. i dont really care right now, im still excited. changing the subject, an apollogy to all viewers that read my last entry, im dissapointed in myself ( Read more... )

i hate my past, im ashamed of it, im ashamed of how i was hit so often and yet i gained no real intelligence or awareness until age 16, when i could no longer be beaten, im too strong for that now. im so sad right now, maybe its just the chemical imbalance, but im so severly depressed now, im sure its not the real thing, caused by anything specific ( Read more... )