Are people so animalistic as to be able to block off the only thing that differentiates themselves from animals? Qualia? Perhaps the ability to block off sentience of another human being is how much people have evolved to become. The ability to treat people like pawns to a game. Right now i'm so confused as to the capacity of humanity I don't ( Read more... )

I'm doubly confused. Perhaps I'm a lot more innocent than I think I am ( Read more... )

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Today went past in a whizz.

By whizz I mean a jerky jumpy exciting kind of whizz. I woke up in the morning with a start and discovered I had woken up an hour before and turned off my alarm clocks. In a jiffy and a huffpuff, I was sitting in a room with a allsmiley doll on my left, a chubbybubby monster on hers, and a moronic moron on my right, and a ( Read more... )

I'm in a daze again, guess I'm not going to make a big fuss out of it as usual. Just hate it when I'm like this. I can't do anything. It's like anaesthetic for the brain.

I've discovered an image in my head that nailed itself to my skull. I didn't even know about it until now. You always asked if I thought I could live with someone else. Imagine marrying someone else. I never replied, I didn't know. But I know now.

I'd reel him in slowly, with so much caution, on strings tied loosely about his waist towards me. I'd hope he would've untied them somehow. But every time, he'd come slamming straight into my face with such force I'm sure he willed it. And every night it recurs, again and again. And my chest, timorous almost, retreats into itself. His eyes stare at ( Read more... )

Why on earth should I care?

London has been unfriendly. Unkind. There are 6 billion people on this earth. But none of these people but one, will know me.

And again I've lost myself in this thick jungle of people, wandering somewhere along the pitch dark roads of London, with a map and a bus guide but without a direction. Why have I once again thrown myself in a world of ( Read more... )

I find it kinda funny I've spent half my life being an emo prick. I've changed, at least i can look back and laugh. Some things just aren't worth being sad about. I'm happy I have a huge emotional palette though. I guess that's one of the good things that came out of that. I'm quickly moving on to the next stage of my life. Albeit a little ( Read more... )