i guess i should update before they delete this thing. because i still like it. i can't let it go.

I'm sorry Livejournal, that I only come to you to complain, or when I have a problem. but the thing is, I go to a few other people to complain, too, and I don't want to be a burden to them. I feel like a broken record. I worry what they think about me, and if they will get to the point where they don't know what to tell me anymore ( Read more... )

why is it so freaking hard for me to make friends?

Sometimes, it is all so crystal clear what i would like my personality to be like. i would be more extroverted, funny, witty, and know how to handle criticism with grace. Instead, I feel too nice, boring, introverted/in my own world, and let people get away with saying whatever it is they want to say. 
How do I change? 
How do I get out of this

I'm going to add to this bad boy.
I just need to write it all down so it is out there in the universe.
If anyone has any tips or suggestions, please feel free to shoot away!

To do list (to be done now and/or just for life in general)

. Expand Vocabulary
. Study Polish (become fluent in Polish)
. Organize closet in the little room
. Make more homemade baby ( Read more... )

I really need to organize my time and life. I am overwhelmed. 

New mother-in-law mantra for me to lather. rinse. and repeat to myself when i am in the same vicinity as her:

"she is nice. and i love her. she just says really dumb things sometimes".

i hope this helps to dissipate my anxiety.

I'm having trouble getting over things I've said or done in my past. 
Any advice on this?

Everyone always says, oh sarah! you are so nice! when the truth is, i feel like a selfish asshole most of the time. 

How are you, LJ friends?  I think it is time to start writing frequently again. I waste sooooo much of my time on the computer, I might as well write and gain a little therapy from it ( Read more... )

 I really am still alive! I always read my friend's LJs, but I never seem to want to write my own anymore.

SO, update #1:

I am 36 weeks and 2 days! Our little Liliana is going to be here in less than 4 weeks.

I sort of look like this, but even bigger now.


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