hey, i haven't written in a while, but i've been busy. my life right now is very confusing. maybe you can help, although i doupt you can. i will have to talk in code because not everyone knows my secret, there's no point of telling even any more people that i have already told because i don't even know if i'm spreading lies or not. i'm just so ( Read more... )

i'm not so sure at dis point in time, who r my friends n who rn't. i'm never told ne, neither is jackie. miri no's it all. i'd like 2 b more involved wit my friends sides the weekly thing @ greg's. but i never am. if i am, it's from people who actually inculde me. if there r other people there, i don't even no if they want me around. i might as ( Read more... )

=-O -Oi hate people who think they control MY LIFE. people who think they can tell ME 2 "starighten my hair" or other shit like that. maybe i got tired of bone straight hair n was happy when my hair got wavy. mayb i don't need u tellin ME how 2 live MY LIFE. it's not ur decsion what i do wit MY LIFE!!! u can only make up ur mind, not MINE. i can ( Read more... )

i feel so bad 2day it's not even funny. yesterday was just the worst. i still feel terrible bout it. i'm so scared 2 talk 2 him. i'm not sure y i am, i've talked 2 him a million times b4, but 2day it feels totally different. i wish that everything will b ok, but it won't b the same. i won't feel as comfterable as i did b4, n i don't think he will ( Read more... )

i'm so lost in it all. every is rushing at me so fast that i wish i cood make time stop. there's only 1 person i can actually talk 2, but i don't think that they reely wanna talk 2 me at all. i wish there was 1 person i cood talk 2 n mayb even trust. i no that in hs my friends will slipt up. i'm sayin who goes where cause it's just 2 painful 4 me. ( Read more... )

i've come to the conculsion that i can trust guys more then girls. i no that this may hurt some people, but please don't take it offsencely. i've just noticed that girls talk to much 2 each other(yes, ironic comin from me:-)but guys on the other hand won't talk to people as much. sure there are very few girls that if u tell them somethin, u no it ( Read more... )

here is my first live journal entry. idk y i reely made this, but i figured i could let out feelings here that i've been holding onto for a while. here u can guide me in my life, because most of the time, i'm not so sure how 2 handle it. i do have my xanga, but there's so many people there that don't reely no what their talking about. right now, i ( Read more... )