Okay I admit it.. I don't know what I want.
But who knows what they want anymore..
who knows..
who knows...
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My feelings so dxemi up
so deep within my mind.
My words beneath my tounge,
just slightly withering on the line.
I don't know if I can see past reality,
what else is there to even look beyond?
I'm so lost...
So confused....
Everything just fell apart.When something finally goes well ( Read more... )

Things went well. It's still really hard for me, especially everything that has happened recently. It's okay though. I know for myself what is true and what isn't true. Maybe that smile of mine will have to cover up the hurt for a while, but things will be better. Time heals. G-U-Y kissed me.Like he meant it. I know he meant it. It was more than ( Read more... )

Today I just wanted to cry. Well,actually, I did cry... Thank god I had some of the most amazing friends around me to help me. I was hoping to start off a new year fresh and clean, but I was wrong. All of the useless drama returned today, and it really wasn't something I wanted to deal with. Why can't people fucking deal with their own business? ( Read more... )

This going back to school thing really isn't working for me... I'm sitting at home at 6 ck, and I feel like I'm on break still. I can't bring myself to do homework, yet I still have to. I have a fucking book report, and so much more. I don't understand what I'm doing in Math right now, and it just sucks. Oh well. Hope school was great for everyone ( Read more... )

him... he's immature, he is consistently focused on recieving "play", he can't even hold a friendship with me after things drasticly fell apart, and he has left me so confused. What has ever made me see something in this past guy? I just realized that I can't comprehend how someone like me can suddenly feel so attached to someone who treated me ( Read more... )

I just saw the movie The Company and it was absolutely amazing. I miss those days when dancing =  my lust.  <3

Wow. I haven't felt this feeling in a while. I really really have something for a particular guy. I've had my eye on him, but spending time with him has made me like him so much more. He is possibly everything I want, so close to perfection, its astonishing. I love it. I don't want to keep my hopes up, so I won't, yet they are so high, but I won't ( Read more... )

Who is going to be your new years kiss?

Have a safe and happy new years to all of you!
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Yesterday was great... Woke up around 12, went to eat at Le Pain de Quoident with my mom (so delicious), went shopping at Victoria's, went to get my nails/toes done, got coffee bean (of course), went to Melrose with a friend, went to Il Pastio for dinner with a friend, and that was my fulfilling day. SOME OF MY NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONs: find my ( Read more... )