so apparently...

[pure_vanity]

What goes on in my head needs to remain there

Comments

[anonymous]

I do not want to be that friend who can only "spew out the wisdom she's gathered in her great experience of life". I do not know much. I just want to help. I want to try. I want to do the right thing. I want to make you feel better. Teach me how. Please.

unhelpful empathy

[mindlessrambler]

I know what you mean. I feel alone too. I don't think I can help you though, because I've come to the conclusion that we can't help each other... not really. You are the only one you have, your friends can only tell you that they care about you and are willing to listen; most likely, their advice, though well meaning, will feel somewhat off. This may seem very depressing, but not necessarily. Others can still contribute a great deal to your life, you just have to be the one you can depend on, because everyone else is ultimately most concerned with themselves and working out their own crap... they can only be there for you to a certain extent. Anyways, I don't presume to be someone whose opinion you should listen to, I just wanted to let you know that, you aren't alone in feeling alone.

Re: unhelpful empathy

[pure_vanity]

Alright, Jen. Since failed attempts in school at discussing feelings have deterred me from talking to you altogether, we can talk here. This is what I think will aid in fighting this feeling, which is altogether untrue.
Having some sort of relationship with some sort of person who will love you and give you all emotional necessities.
See, but this isn't true. Relationships likely complicate this and cause all sorts of unnecessary stress. But still, somehow in my mind it is so uncomplicated: fall in love that is not unrequited, feel better.
And I think that is what is actually stressing me out. The thought of being unstressed. By being in love. Is this normal?

Re: unhelpful empathy

[mindlessrambler]

Yes well, pre 8am english, in the hallway isn't my most emotionally in touch time. I laughed off what I couldn't bring myself to comment intelligently or even coherently on... I followed you until the end of what you said, you are stressed by the thought of not being stressed by being in love? Is this an immanent possibility for you? I don't really know enough about what goes on in your life to fully understand what you said, but are you saying that you aren't ready for the love you seek because you aren't prepared to abandon your current state, how ever much it may frustrate you. If this is what you meant, then I think it's pretty normal... it isn't me, but it's highly comprehensible. No, I'm something else... if you read my entry, perhaps it's evident. Anyhoo, if you do want to have an actual conversation involving human interaction, I'm all for it. I always find it interesting to talk to someone new.