sometimes, i really do genuinely hate you. but i'd never tell you that.

for a while, i was really really happy with (almost) every aspect of my life.
now i'm really really happy with very few aspects of my life.
what happened?
i am unsure of everything right now.
i feel like everything is backwards, like nothing is how it should be.
i feel like i'm not spending enough time with/on the right things.

i want to change

i'm having serious reservations about this.

i'm going away, only for two days, but i am really excited. with the exception of a few people, i am sick of everyone i am frequently in contact with right now. i am just sick of how things are always the same. i know i've said that before, but i'm saying it again. i feel really disconnected, out of sorts, pushed away, replaced, bored, aggrivated, ( Read more... )

Maybe all one can hope for, is to end up with the right regrets.

this is such deja vu.

you've said those things before,
thought those things before,
acted this way before.
i didn't like it then, and i don't like it now.

i am begining to send out resumes to new places. the job at nolo i was going to apply for got filled, so now i am applying to jest jewels on fourth street, as well as some other places. hopefully i'll get a job somewhere that i like, and it will pay well ( Read more... )

lord have mercy, i have the worst hangover. its 4:30, my hangover should be gone by now.

i want to kill myself.

iiiiiii don't wanna work! i want to bang on my drums all day ( Read more... )

i feel out of sorts ( Read more... )