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purestfeeling

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Nov 30, 2001 05:44

Crying uncontrollably. Why? Uncertain. Don't know what to do with myself. Don't know what to think of the people around me. Considering being a recluse for a while, a few years perhaps. I'm tired of getting hurt. Most everyone I know now I will not be talking to 10 years from now. I care greatly for these people. All through my life those ( Read more... )

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omg.. gijogurl November 30 2001, 08:03:49 UTC

You remember when we went to go see "Instinct" and you did something or said something.. and i said, "your mom." and i had only known you like, a month or something.. maybe less, and you said, "my mom is dead." and i think you had me scared for days thinking that i offended you somehow in the worst way.. not knowing anything about you, and already i'm on your bad side. then again.. we could be even.. you were on my bad side the second you took the knife from my grip...

I know... anonymous November 30 2001, 12:40:11 UTC

Reading that was possibly the most touching thing i have seen in a while. Thank you for being non fictional and basically...human. With that said, you are not the only one that is a truthful good person, so please dont give up on the rest of us. Granted being scewed over by people is horrible, and sometimes kills a piece of you, just remember time is a panacea. Your mom, love, and best friend(s) have hurt you, and anyone else might have crumbled by now, but please remember that you are "a more honest person than just about everyone I know. So many people act different around different people, I don't. So many people lie, I don't. I'm an all around great guy and great person". I agree with you 100% that the excuse of "its part of growing up" is overly used and pathetic by now. There are so many ways of looking at your pain, but i encourage you to take these hard times and let them make you stronger, and wiser. To end up like your father would be sad, i agree, but learn from that then. I dont know you all that well, but i do know how it ( ... )

Being a recluse ... anonymous December 7 2001, 09:51:33 UTC

... isn't really worth it. I've been a recluse for a long time now, probably since sophomore year at DAHS. I've shunned just about all social contact, even with those I consider my friends. I don't think I even need to sign this for you to know that it's true. It's gotten to the point where I don't even do it on purpose anymore.

I've become socially inept. I have trouble asking a stranger on the street for the time, or asking my waiter to correct my dinner order. I have trouble telling a friend that what they're doing is inconsiderate of my feelings. I have trouble keeping any friends at all.

And the worst part is, I want to go back to the way it was, and I can't. I want to be more social, and make more friends, and I can't do it no matter how hard I try.

I consider myself to be on the same wavelength as you. Don't do the same thing I did. Keep your friends, and try not to hate people too much. It'll eat away at you inside.

anonymous April 5 2002, 11:50:10 UTC

i dont even know what to say about that. i keep starting to write things and they are either too mean or the sound like i am kissing your ass like eveyone else that writes back. CHEER the F#ck up. THats really all i have to say.

Re: purestfeeling April 5 2002, 18:34:23 UTC

That was from quite some time ago. Things are nearly perfect these days, especially with the lady. And there was a good deal more to that than just expression of pain. How is it you're such a hard ass yet write an annon post and cannot bring yourself to type out that big word "fuck?" My friends don't kiss my ass, they just know the situation. I'd more than love to actually meet you and talk to you. Why don't you begin with telling me who you are. Since you're so certain of yourself and im just a fool you should have no second thoughts about exposing yourself, right? ;-)

anonymous April 6 2002, 23:09:23 UTC

FUCK. Better?

Re: purestfeeling April 7 2002, 07:06:40 UTC

There ya go big man, not bad at all. Now if you'll just tell us who you are.

anonymous April 7 2002, 23:37:23 UTC

i will never EVER reveal my true identity. Mwuuuuhahahaha. However, mr. smartie pants i will tell you this. i know you alot better then you assume i do. and i have formed MY opnion that you a in your own self-righteous world and are blind to REALITY of what things are really like. LIFE IS HARD ."SUck it up" wasnt mean. it was only a kurt expression of the good old life lesson that we are some lucky mutha fuckas and we dont even realize it.i mean we could be 20 year olds somehwere in the middle east. then we'd really have something to wake up and cry about.

Re: purestfeeling April 8 2002, 09:59:04 UTC

no shit pal. You're not as big an asshole as i initially presumed you were. Never hte less you don't know me all that well. Because i know likfe isn't that hard. And things are really good for me now. And I'm completely aware of the fact that when things were "horrible" for me, they were still pretty damn good. But the fact you'll never reveal your true identity is pretty sad so im ending this thread with you.