Why must I feel so heartbroken? Does she get a thrill out of making me feel bad? She must, otherwise she wouldn't make me feel this way. Everyday it gets worse. She doesn't understand that I have given her everything I have, everything, just to make her happy. And the way she repays my kindness and love is with expectation and scorn. Nothing ( Read more... )

Heartbreak... that is what I feel. Everyday, always the same feelings of rejection and loneliness. Do you know what it's like to live with the person you love with all your heart, and never be able to win their heart? Is there nothing I can do to win her heart? Whatever. And I see things change a couple of days before she starts going out with ( Read more... )

I feel trapped in the corner of a circular room. What is there to do? My sister is kicking us out for smoking in the house, one time... I don't know where I'm going to go now. I don't know what Skip is going to do either. Anyway, last night, I woke up to her comforting me at about 3 a.m., and she was asleep while she was doing it. She sat on ( Read more... )

What is there to do? City Heights is killing me!!! I need to find a job stat. Why is it that I get stuck in these positions? What did I do? I guess that my good luck ran out. And to top things off, my sister is PREGNANT!!! I'm very disappointed in her, but I will support her the best I can. But, I'm not babysitting, period. I feel like I'm ( Read more... )

Well, well, well... Livin' in the ghetto... Pregnant sister... Living with Skip... Lots of 's gone down since I last posted. I am finally out of that cursed apartment in Kearny Mesa, and I left them a little surprise. LOL*evilly* I live in City Heights now, and it sucks... But, I have Skip to help me along. Anyway, things aren't really ( Read more... )

Things are still very unusual around me, but what did I expect? Skip's been coming over everyday since she got her new job, and that makes me happy. She's been spending weekends over, and I have never been in better spirits about that. But, I do have to say this, something's changed between us. Not in a bad way, but something has definetly ( Read more... )

Eviction is imminent, I pretty much have the rest of this month to look forward to. My 21st is coming up, and there's not much that I can do to celebrate. I know that this weekend I'm going to have an amazing oddysee that will consume several hours. I think things will work out, I had a group interview at Pat & Oscar's today, and I think it went ( Read more... )

Insanity!!! Nothing has been going right for a long time, but this last week in particular has been extremely odd. Skip spent the weekend with me, and that was the last really cool thing that has happened <3. Let's see, I'm getting evicted from my apartment due to lack of payment of rent. I have the intent, but not the ability. Rob has been ( Read more... )

I am sitting here thinking to myself, why doesn't Terra love me? Why won't she be mine? Then I realize that she does love me, just not the way I want her to. Nothing I can do, she wants this other guy, so, I'll wait for her. I love you Terra Gene.

I'm dying! I feel worse than I have ever felt in my life. I've been so sick that I haven't been able to do a damn thing for the past 3 days. And on top of that, the last couple of months have been really interesting as well. Let's see... Where to start... Oh, I guess that I should start off with everyone moving out of my apartment in February ( Read more... )