Got from Japan and I weigh 140lbs ( Read more... )

140 lbs. today. Probably because I'm dehydrated.
Need to mantain this as my highest.

I came so close to binging tonight. Then I reminded myself...I went out for dinner tonight in a big group (at my favourite fucking restaurant!). I was so proud of myself because I only had oolong tea. I can't throw all the hard work away today by binging past midnight on instant noodles, bacon and peanut butter. That would defeat the purpose and I ( Read more... )

Oh my fucking god last night was rough. I saw J and Nic on the beach and joined them and then Jacob reappeared. I was so happy to have found them. They invited me for a movie and drinks. I couldn't be happier. I was sitting by them, they were in their PJs, it was so nice. I had to fucking ruin it by bawling my eyes out because I was just so sad. ( Read more... )

This journal means so much to me ( Read more... )

Hi. 145lbs here. I can already see a little bit of difference. 10 cals yesterday and 10 cals so far today. Just one cup of chicken broth basically. I'm trying to make up for getting stoned and then eating 4 servings of double-cheese lasagna. I can't believe I did that. I might go grab a roll of sushi later. One meal a day max. Do not take food ( Read more... )

Omg I actually worked out for the third day. Meaning, I didn't stop, and I actually woke up early to do it. Early enough to do it and take a shower and get ready before a long day of work Saturday. I am really proud of myself. But I feel kind of nauseous and sick. I hope it's just a side effect of Ephedrine. There is one move I could do today that ( Read more... )

I'm cleaning out all my food in the fridge and the cupboards ( Read more... )

How many chances does one get ( Read more... )

I can't feel the ephedrine today and I'm frightened.
I took two doses.