everyday is harder. everyday something else happens. everyday im just a little closer to giving up.

You work so hard, strive to reach your goal and when you finally get there you get kicked back down to where you started. After all the work all the frustration over the last couple months what do i have to show for it..? A broken heart and misery. I didn't walk away a richer man or a happier man. I walked away with lessons learned and risks taken ( Read more... )

I lost a good friend. I lost control. I lost myself. I almost lost the love of my life. So much has happened. I feel like shit, I feel sad, I feel distraught, I felt not myself. Everything is changing. I gave up drinking to stay with the one I love. If it meant giving up an arm, a leg, an eye, I'd do that too. Times are a changing, I'm changing and ( Read more... )

I miss Hope. I miss High School. I just wish she was here. Best week of my life. We seriously did so much and hungout every possible chance we had. She knows how I feel and I know how she feels. Seattle here we come!

Don't use this but once every six months or so. For those of you that read this still, congrats cause I really don't care if no one does or not, I just like typing. I stopped drinking as much, I met someone who makes me happier than I've ever been and I'm so fucking glad were together. Shes amazing. I got a truck and now I'm getting a boat. I don't ( Read more... )

fuck you for making me beleive. beleive in you. how come everytime i write its always when im mad? not like anyone gives a shit, but oh well. what the fuck happened to me? im a bigger dick than i have been for years. oh well i guess i wanted a new direction. well heres my new direction. FUCK YOU. i dont even know whats going on with my life. all i ( Read more... )

Haven't been up to too much lately. Just working a lot. I gotta work this whole weekend and I have this really big project due Wednesday. I'm procrastinating and I don't wanna do it. My life is good. Hanging out with good friends and have excellent times. I miss some people. I don't have a lot of friends anymore, but the ones I do have I keep close ( Read more... )

Weekend has been chizzill. Friday was nothing special. Saturday I played paintball all day, then I was supposed to go to Bane but Marina's brother took our tickets. So then me, Marina, and Danny went to Chain and sold the one ticket we had left. Then we went to the block and made fun of all the dumb kids. After that we went to Denny's and made this ( Read more... )

My friend killed himself today ( Read more... )

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