I feel miserable.

I've avoided blogging about it because its hard to put it into words.

I feel like I'm letting myself and everyone else around me, down.

My rational brain knows that everything is great. My irrational brain is a stubborn fucker.

I've never had to deal with my head fighting with itself, on top of pains and uncomfortable bloating and ( Read more... )

Just before I have a spaz, I begin to lose my memory.

I forget things, I don't remember dates, I stutter, I lose my train of thought.

It's all started again. It's not at the forefront of my mind, just back there somewhere.

I'm fine, more than fine if you will. I am ok. Just recognising the signs and hoping I can sweep the impending breakdown under ( Read more... )

Feeling that rise in my chest. That notable feeling of anxiety that comes with money, or lack thereof. I know we'll get through it. We always do.

Just struggling to see the light this week. They 'forgot' to deduct car park payments for 6 weeks and have decided to take deductions over the next 2 pays. Everyone loves losing $240. FML

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So, I failed largely in the post in my blog resolution of 2012. Mainly because I am not that interesting. I enjoy reading a good blog, but have to 'get into it' so I really only read about 5 of them routinely.

Today is Sunday. The day of rest. Today is also Meg's birthday. Today is a day when I should prepare for back to work tomorrow. Also a day ( Read more... )

I was actually disappointed that today wasn't Monday.

What?

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I love a cold, but sunny day.
I love to dance.
I love drinking a coffee by the beach, whether it be on or near.
I love to laugh. Out loud, even though my laugh is terrible.
I love to be anywhere with my puppies.
I love their kisses, without tongue. Thank you very much!
I love to explore.
I love fresh sheets and shaved legs.
I love sharing a meal and a ( Read more... )

I am beyond bored. I need to find better ways of entertaining myself. I just want to hang out with Justin. I cannot wait until Friday when he has no more exams. I miss our time. Big time.

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Dear Friend,

You need to remember your motto of not sweating the small stuff. You also need to know that when you tell everyone that everything happens for a reason and that everything will be ok, this applies to you too. You need to listen more and speak less.

You need to praise the lordeh! good that you do, and not focus on the negatives. You need ( Read more... )

I have a bad habit of biting my nails.

I stopped about 4 years ago (time flies when you're chewing your nails, APPARENTLY).

I don't know when or why I started again. I can only put it down to stress and then habit.

I've made a conscious effort to give it up. It's been about a week and I'm only tempted when they get bumpy and catch.

The only downside ( Read more... )

I am so looking forward to the Christmas holidays. If nothing but sleeping in with my loves and tidying up my freaking house! Life is flying by, not necessarily in a bad way, it's just November tomorrow.. How?

I have 6 weeks (or there abouts) until I am on leave. 3 weeks of not driving to work, not dealing with NEAFs, contracts or people! Winning! ( Read more... )