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selfish...
am i selfish? can you consider me selfish b/c i do not want to deal with my familys drama. there is only so much you can tell a person and tell a person to leave someone. when is it going to be the last draw? how can you really understand why a person really stays with a person? especially if that person treats you like crap. i guess i can ( Read more... ) -
One year...
Well i ahve not posted in such a long time. not even sure where to start. but i thought right now was a good time to start. i am not even sure on how to start or begin. This whole year has been the hardest in my life. i had to face life with my papa. never in a million years, right before he died, did i think i would ever have to do it. i remember ( Read more... ) -
dreams
it has been since the beginning of around may that i have had a dream of my papa. i am not sure why they started this weekend. it is weird. i woke up crying and waking up rick. so i am not even sure on what to think. it just happens for no reason at all. maybe it is b/c it is getting closer to six months for my papa. the day me and rick celebrate ( Read more... ) -
been so long...
i have not written in such a long time. this was such great therapy to me and i had to stop. the main reason is for the fact that it came to pass at work to not use the internet for personal. so i stopped writing. but i decided to write some thoughts down ( Read more... ) -
the world in a nutshelll..... my version anyway LOL
i have not posted in awhile. i think it is b/c of the stupid job. NO PERSONAL internet look up at work. no personal use. work is getting to be a real drag. there is all sorts of rumors going around. one being that there is no money to pay the employees. if that is the case. will i be out of a job. i am not sure what to think. and if i am out of a ( Read more... ) -
a better day of sorts...
well today is better for the most part. i guess. i am not sure on what happened yesterday. i just get frustrated sometimes. i did not even get a chance to say some good stuff ( Read more... ) -
i think...
it hink someone is out to get me. these kids are monsters. i feel like they are being told right now to not listen to me. i have one kid right now just screaming at the top of his lungs. b/c i took away his dime. i asked him three times to put it away since it was time to take a nap and he did not want to. he would not . he would put some away and ( Read more... ) -
being sensitive...
i have been in this weird mood lately. my feelings go way up and then they go way down or they just stay in one place. it is weird. i cant just feel one thing. and lately they are just more sad than normal. which i think can be expected w/ everything that i have experienced. but today i was extra sad or extra sensitive, one of the two. so me and my ( Read more... ) -
8 and 2 Months
yesterday marked two occasions of sorts. one good and one bad. the good one b/c me and rick got eight months together. wow did the time pass by really fast. it does not seem that long at all. i am really surprised that we have been together that long. and it has been great. we are happy. we just click and make it work ( Read more... )