well life has gotten better after all the stuff that has happened. i feel happier and not so emotional. i even went out with a guy this weekend when i went home. i have known him since high school. so i am excited about this and what can develop. i got a new tv also. i used to have a 13 inch and now i have a 20 inch. it is exctiting for me. it was ( Read more... )

everytime i even get the chance to write in this i always wish i had more happier things to say. for some odd reason it never happens that way. sorry that this has been dreary and sad ( Read more... )

i do not know how to start. a lot has happened to me in the past few months. i guess i can just start with the short end of it. the main thing that is eating at me. the questioni that is on my mind. that question being am i really a good person, am i really a good friend. if so why does it seem like i am not. if i was then why is all this bad ( Read more... )

this weekend was a big sort of blur for me. not sure it is b/c i am pms'ing or just that i was just feeling sort of lonely , or .... i am so confused with my feelings. i feel that i cant talk about them because i dont understand them myself. i cant even put them into words. the funny thing is that i have been feeling like that for awhile now ( Read more... )

the hurricane has been sort of a wake up call for me and my religious beliefs. i will not get into detail at all b/c i just do not do that for the fact that eveyone has a different opinion. but it has been so scary and so sad. all those people. old and babies. i have been so addicted to the news until this past saturday. i just cannot stand to ( Read more... )

well i have been in such a funk this past week. i was crying and being so sad. until this weekend. i was debating whether or not to go to this party. i go. at the end of the night i meet this guy. i give him my number and i think he is never going to call. but he does. we talk. and we get off the phone on sunday. i do not call back until tonight. ( Read more... )

wow! i cant believe this. this is nuts. i hate this. i have been so upset and crying like all the time now. this funk is awful. i cant stand it. i feel so weak and vulnerable. i know what it is about. it just proves how stupid i really am. i guess i am dealing with stuff that happened in the past and i am suffering right now. it feels like i almost ( Read more... )

well once agian it has been so long that i ahve wrote in this. and i miss it. i do. i am trying to think of a way or figure out a way so i can have my computer back or at least have a new one. well actually that is the least of my worries ( Read more... )

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well i just thought that i should update since i feel that i have not wrote in a long time ( Read more... )