jebus. i feel like since i havent used my lj in so long im totally lost in mary's world.

AH. its 3:08 am. ive been lying in bed for 4 hours, and i cant sleep. all i can think about is how i have to get up at 8:30. actually its more like shit im only going to be able to sleep for 6 hours...an hour later FUCK im only gunna be able to sleep for 5, etc.
UGH i cant say it enough,
neurosis is a biiiiiiiiitch!!!!!!!!!!!

Well it definetly seems the holiday cheer has set in with all my friends.. im actually really glad its christmas time for some reason. were not putting up a tree this year, and its my first christmas without my brother, but im still SO grateful for the time off. Its really the first vacation EVER where i know exactly what i want to do, and what im ( Read more... )

i was turned down today by a hayes. i cant wait for it to be 12 hours from now. because i'll be done with my english oral sex, and basically be on VACA...till saturday when the home test nightmares commence. but im hoping that since i'll only have art on the agenda for the next 3 weeks, i'll be able to chill out a bit and just TRY to enjoy ( Read more... )

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i cant help but feel guilty, and maybe it really IS my fault/im a bitch, but i get so irritated by my frends. i dont even feel that comfortable calling them that..i think im trully a loner under the surface. which i chose, but if i had it my way of course id want to meet someone i would feel great calling a friend ( Read more... )

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AHHH!!! IM ALL DONE WITH APPLICATINOS!!!!
fuck yea.

if i hear or am forced to be involvedin ONE more fucking conversation about "how my apps are going" or "waht schools are you applying to?" im just gunna pull a rick james ( Read more... )

i have been so stressed out of my ass lately i cant function. i cant even socialize anymore. like my whole life is basically on hold because...i cant handle the pressure ( Read more... )