i wish it would rain.

today alex and me have been together for exactly one year and a month. not going to laredo this weekend has made me feel somewhat disappointed though. i know that i will see him next week and the anticipation is actually something to look forward to. seeing his face after two weeks will be wonderful i can feel my face smiling already.

im not going to laredo this weekend because my parents have decided that i am too tired...i didnt even go to school today...im "burned out" as my mom describes it...nothing can lift my spirits at this time...im going to miss him dearly...i would rather have him next to me while i sleep then not having him there at all...he is not allowed to sleep ( Read more... )

here are just a few things that i have come to realize while sitting here...

number 1 its okay to be alone
number 2 making love is one of the best feelings in the world
number 3 i miss having friends that are girls but i would never take action upon it
number 4 i dont like to eat meat anymore (except fish)
number 5 i cannot live without alex
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ive had somewhat of a nice weekend...went to HEB yesterday...got vegan chicken nuggets and eggrolls...yummy...along with trix cereal and vanilla soy milk it was delicious...i have also come to the conclusion that i am addicted to Trecha's Brand Liquid Chile...weird i know but i cant stop eating it...and it gives me a tummy ache and makes me feel ( Read more... )

i was happy today as i walked to that bus alone...i smiled to myself...i looked up and stared at the sky with the sun shining in my eyes..as i looked away i saw tiny pieces of glitter as i walked...it comforted me to know that i still know how to be happy...for a moment it actually felt like i belonged here...i just wished he was here with me...i ( Read more... )

today was okay...i daydreamed the majority of it...what a wonderful escape

i am way too paranoid for my own good...i take too many pain relivers...today maybe i had a slight spark of happiness through out my day...i am drinking hot tea so i can maybe relax my stress filled nerves...i think i just need to lie down...

i think pain has made its way into my body and is calling it home...my body is filled with aches and pains...no more pain please...tired..so tired of it...im back in sharyland...left at about 2 in the afternoon...woke up around 7 so i could spend more time with alex...we went to HEB so i could get necterines...i also got some coffee so i wouldnt be ( Read more... )

being in love is a feeling of complete bliss...