im tired of saying and writing the same things over and over. im tired of having the same conversations that dont go anywhere. im tired of people not fucking listening ( Read more... )

i get this awkward feeling sometimes, like i'm at the right place at the right time with the right people and everything feels good. it's awkward because, well, i'm not used to it. i played a bunch of songs for people over msn and everyone loved all my songs, which makes me feel kinda good inside. i just can't wait to start touring and smashing all ( Read more... )

october is coming again, the past revisited over the hills and far away i smell the leaves turn brown i see the cries you called for me i heard your babydoll shoes open up and call me something really bad, not negative but impossibly lighter than what i thought people would describe me as. you're just not a little girl anymore, you have the right ( Read more... )

tim. fucking TIM. IMs me. finally gets in contact with me, after ignoring me for 7 months (because he's a coward, and couldnt talk to me about what he did to ME). He always makes it out like he didn't do anything. He told me he wanted to be with me - then i find out a month later (when his ex calls me) and says she's still fucking him. i always get ( Read more... )

i feel stuck, and bored, and like everything has become a routine. I dont like that.. it's saturday night, i was invited to two parties and i passed up both of them. for what? - to sit online all night.

how much more lame could i get?

i feel lost. so fucking lost. and i dont know what to do lately ( Read more... )

maybe i do feel stupid for writing so much lately. but whatever. there's nobody to talk to, so i write. that's sad, when you know you have at least 3 close friends - and none of them seem to ever be around... EXCEPT when it's convinient for them. kind of fucked up, but it's fine ( Read more... )

i have to look ahead, i can't let assholes keep me down..like on the bedlam society message board. what a bunch of bullshit ( Read more... )

i dont know how i should be feeling about this. or him. or.. her for that matter. if he wants her, he can be with her. how that'll affect this coming december.. I dont know.

my heart hurts though.

3am. stoned. ranting ( Read more... )