What is THE point?
oh god if only i knew.

I hate resorting back to my shell, I like to think thats not how things go anymore.
I'm glad I can look you in the eye.

*cough cough*

i dont know why i just wrote in this... no one looks at this anymore.

i havent written in here in such a long time.

and that is my post for the next couple of months.

work sucks a lot.

i know i used to talk about how i thought about doing this all the time...

but i think now i really do have to do it and i really dont want to.

gawhhh I've been so busy and I cant find time to do anything. So yea, I learned how to drive last week and went to take my test yesterday, FREAKIN PASSED! but... i guess you could tell from my last entry... and my picture looked pretty good for not showering for 3 days before it. OOOO and one time i saw Leannes mommy while i was driving!! i ( Read more... )

so, all my work is done (i hope/thing) in all of my classes and even though i know that i feel so depressed there, i count the hours and minutes and today i even got to the point of counting seconds........ i just tell myself repeadtly 8 more days ( Read more... )

i fucking love this feeling.

i think im back to me, finally.

things will be back to normal?
i hope.

last night i dreamed that i had to repeatly save people from the water and do rescue breathing and CPR and all that shit... over and over and over...

then people kept doing it to me and i would wake up feeling like i was going to throw up from all the adomobial thrusts

i think they drilled that stuff into my head pretty well.

or im going

today was weird i felt like my face was scrunched up and my hair looked like i was from the 80's ( Read more... )

Nothing has changed, she was right ( Read more... )