Here I am again in January. In a constant state of sad. I miss my mom so much and each birthday is a reminder I didn’t have kids. Windi must have realized how badly my birthday depresses me because she didn’t even say happy birthday she just let it slip by. We had a simple kiss at the turn of the year and then back to our regularly scheduled chaos ( Read more... )

Well I finally got a proper bath, first time this year. Washed my hair and everything. It was apparently so needed and wanted that I didn’t water masturbate. Which if I know nobody can hear and I’m in a tub with hot running water, I lay back and let the hot water work my clit. It’s one of my absolute favorite ways to cum. I didn’t even realize I ( Read more... )

She didn’t get a funeral or a memorial, I think about her every day sometime minutes inside of minutes.
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Sometimes, often in fact I have to wonder if I’m the one that died? Is this my hell? No children? Walking around.... maybe existing...

Hello Wonderful Viking Creature~ I only have minutes to write this for it to still appear on your birthday, but I wanted you to know Big Pixie Love goes out to you for a blessed, Happy birthday!
I Love YOU!!!

you would all be so proud, I called in sick today and slept. My lungs are on fire and being heavy duty presurized once again, pluerisy and I have become such close friends. I took some of my mom's prescription cough medicine that has something wonderful in it, I slept deep! Had some dreams though that are replaying now which is why mostly I am ( Read more... )

Sorry Its a day late, but the Massive Love is there just the same.
Sounds like you enjoyed your Birthday, James and I just wanted you to know that I Love YOU yesterday, today and always. Many Blessings and Much Happiness I send your way.
Be Well and know that the Pixie Loves YOU bunches.
XOXOOXOXXOOXOXOX

I want to send out much love and wonderfully happy birthday wishes to Chelle.
May your day be filled with much happiness and Love.
Know that I LOVE YOU, and have you in my heart and on my mind.
Be Well, My friend~

Wanting to send much Love to all my wonderful friends this Thanksgiving day. I am so Thankful, Grateful, Blessed~ to have you guys in my life and to be able to call you MY friends and to be loved by you.
I send out many PiXie Hugs, Snuggs and Kisses.
I miss you All terribly and Love YOU ALL incredibly Much!!!
Be Well,
~PiXiE~

It isn't easy to go from thinking you have finally found that ONE person that will walk to the end of your life with you to having to back track and just be friends. It hurts like hell, my heart literally aches with pain, my body physically hurts, my soul is screaming. I wasn't looking for a relationship, and I never expected to fall in love so ( Read more... )