I'm  done.

It's almost 3 in the morning and I have no desire to sleep.

Emotionally, I feel like I've been on a rollercoaster for the last 8 hours.

I hate when I'm like this. 

My first ever vlog! So very exciting!

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yuck .

I'm all the way up to 180 lbs.  This is discusting.  I swore I would never let myself get this big again.  It's embarassing.... I don't even wanna leave the house.  I've gained 20 lbs. since I stopped my meds, plus 5 more I had gained I stop taking the full dose.... I hate to say it, but I think I need them to keep me pretty and sane.

Ok, so I've been having a busy day and I don't really feel like typing away about boys, so I make a list of boys who come to mind and pick one and talk about him...

Adrian
Kenny
The Russian
xxxxxx
Jamba boy
Christian guy
Barber shop guy
Chris
Jeremy

I can't think!  There's more, but I can't think of them....

Oh! What is this all about, huh?  Ok, so stop ( Read more... )

omg!  I've been so damn boy crazy lately.... and it's not that I wanna be a whore.  I'm totally desperate for a relationship.  I've been checking out boys I'm hot for and thinking about them being possible boyfriends, and the daydreaming for a long time aout what a relationship would be like with them.  I'm ready.  I've been so anti-relationship ( Read more... )

Mlarg!

Now I'm just getting angry and frustrated and don't wanna do anything!  I feel like since I don't have the get up and go energy, I don't even wanna try!  But, I'm too anxious to sit here and do nothing!  What is wrong with me?!  I'm so weird!

So even though my blog entries have been pretty damn boring lately, I'm excited that I've been writing so much.  I didn't mean to get back into the habit of doing it, but lord knows I needed to.  I really needed an outlet to express myself, being that as of late I have not had anyone to really talk to.  It's sad, but I haven't had any really ( Read more... )

So I went to my new doctor for the first time today.  He was old and lazy.  He barely made any atempt to see what was wrong with me.  I kinda just said, "I think I got the Diabetes," and he just sent me to get tested.  It's so hard to find a decent doctor.  They're all so busy that either they have a million appointments, or they just don't take ( Read more... )