It's been too long since I've written in here. Things have changed a bit, and I'm in need of a vent, so it seems like the perfect time ( Read more... )

I suppose I should be grateful that Mum waited until a couple of hours into Boxing Day to start World War III. At least I could have my Christmas in relative peace, although with the exception of the presents early and the constant prawns it didn't really feel like Christmas. Steve lost points for saying I'd had my Christmas the night before and he ( Read more... )

For the second year in a row I'm struggling with my family in the lead-up to Christmas. It sort of puts a damper on the most wonderful time of the year. I hate it because I love Christmas, but I feel like this angst saps all my joy ( Read more... )

So the move and the last blood test is behind me and I feel like I'm moving forward in life. Both were stressful. The moving saw us packing a truck's worth of stuff the night before, and still moving things out here the next day past midnight. The next day we were cleaning our old place until 10:30 or so, and towards the end we probably weren't ( Read more... )

I'm feeling aware of being isolated at the moment. The anxiety, the health issues, they're all hard stuff. The health issues especially ( Read more... )

I had my doctor's visit today. Most things were normal, but it turns out my blood sugar's a bit out of whack. The numbers are within the normal range according to the World Health Organisation, but not according to Australian standards it seems. She said we could wait a few months and have another blood test and see if it had come down. I've lost a ( Read more... )

Life's moving along, which is a good thing even though it terrifies the side of me that still struggles with anxiety. That seems to be getting under control. I'm learning a lot about my responses and what works, what doesn't. Steve is too I think. For so long he felt like being sympathetic in the middle of a meltdown was rewarding my bad behaviour ( Read more... )

So I survived the blood tests. I mean that in more of an emotional sense than a physical one, because I'm pretty sure no one has died of a blood test. But I didn't cry and I didn't carry on to the point where I slowed the woman down. I did get a bit panicky at one point but I asked Steve to turn my music up, because apparently I'm incapable of ( Read more... )

It's interesting this "new guests to my journal" feature they've got going on now. All these usernames of people I don't know who've been peering in, funnily enough on more than one occasion most of them. Surely they must be disappointed. It made me realise how much of what I've done lately here on LJ has been hidden, friends only or filtered even ( Read more... )

The birthday itself was excellent too. Goodness I love birthay time! It felt like I got to celebrate for a bit longer as we went out and saw the Counting Crows on Tuesday night. I've been working really hard of late on a bunch of projects, but I think I've been burning myself out. To just take off and spend time in a hotel away from it all was just ( Read more... )