hmm well let's night was a mixture of heaven in hell.. Me and sara made love to each other for the first time since we started talking and going out.. it was.. incredible it really was somthign about it just it was like omg cant belive it type shit. But then again a few of my friendships have gotten kinda sour lately .. me and kristen have been mad ( Read more... )

hey journal ( Read more... )

whats up its justin, i havn't updated in a long time. But it's not like anyone reads this shit anyways lol. so hm lets see. july 8th me and sara got together so far so good till about 10th just stupid shit and then last -smh- she dosn't understand me at all but yeah i duno i love her to death but -shrugs- it hurts when she wont understand me and ( Read more... )

Pene enorme [9:49 AM]: please fuckin talk to me ( Read more... )

well once again me and danni arn't friends anymore or w/e.. -sighs- i care about her alot and we was good firends and this time i didnt ignore her at all and i duno i just htink she secrelty like hated me or somthign and just found a reason to make me leave her or w/e.. i duno i miss talking to her though like seriousl she made me laugh like 24/7 ( Read more... )

and then i had some fucked up dream that the hallowen h20 guy was in and he wasl iek tryinto kill me n shit ;\

why do i keep havin these fucked up dreams. just now they always tkae place n my bed and with my dad but ok im sleeping right in my dream im asleep and for some reason my tooth is bothering me so i pick it out with my tung k i got back to sleep my friend cellphonei sgoin off my dads coimin my room and my body starts hurting and feels like im getin ( Read more... )

Well liek i fuckin figured sara fell asleep when we was suposed to be watchin a mother fucking movie. -smh- fuckin bullshit "oh ill be awake baby" bl abla bla. So yah i figured we would watch the movie at 9 because she was suposed to be home tonight she eneded up goin to some party thing? Blowing me off until 10:30 at night mytime when shes gonna ( Read more... )

hey journal sup im just bored and blah today. Sara is ignoreing me.. so yah i guess i wont be askin her outtoady wich was expected from a bunch of ppl but im kidna glad now i can ask her on a diff date thats if she still wants me n all. And it would in a way be likea fresh fresh start ya kno? But yeah i poped pills last night ;x lol i was all ( Read more... )

i dont know whats wrong with me but for anyone who reads this and feels ive been rude or mean or somthing to them lately.. im sorry its jsut god that dream has fucked me up.. im just im so scared anymore.. im afraid of my self im afraid im gonna hurt someone. This is one time im glad i dont know any of u irl. I'm afraid i might hit you or somethign ( Read more... )